You were the one who let me down.

You were the one who wasn't there.

You were the one who didn't care.

You were the one who let me drown.


I was the one who paid.

I was the one who tried.

I was the one who cried.

But I was the one who stayed.


All of those things you did to me.

And I didn't bother to flee.

I am out of control.

I feel it in my soul.

I'm tearing apart again.

Tearing apart just like then.


It hurts me so badly,

being stuck in a fake reality.

Not being able to write.

Not able to see the light.


This is all hard to comprehend.

Tell me; When will it all end?

I am living but deceiving.

I am dying but still breathing.

I am deaf but hear a voice.

I am chained but still have a choice.

I am confused yet I know,

that the calmest people can be ******.