I wonder what would happen if you knew,
Those times when I had a glimpse of you,
Smiling with those eyes that can't seem to be true,
Or on that day when we talk about dew,
And how my heart was racin' but you've got no clue,
Oh, what would happen if you knew,
How many times my heart aches for you,
Though in love I still feel blue,
For deep in my heart, I knew it too.
That there can be no such thing as me and you.

-MCJ

Maybe I've been searching for love,
When loneliness is all I can have.

Maybe I was trying to make a smile,
When tears are falling in my eyes.

Maybe I've made you my fantasy,
When "us" can't be a reality.

Or maybe I was hoping for more,
When all I deserve was less.

-MCJ

Let's add a cup of smile
With plenty of laughs.

Mix with hugs and secrets
That make our hearts thrill.

Set the oven of our ties
Heated by our trust.

As we frost our times with memories
Let's enjoy the sweetness of this day.

-MCJ

It just seem so strange,
How our moments have all exchanged.
Our moments of laughter that sees no range,
Were lost by time that has engaged.
No matter how I try to rearrange,
Those days were gone and all has changed.

-MCJ

In a sudden change
        Holding on for just a hope
                        Sudden burst of tears.

                                                      -MCJ

She was laughing as he pass by
Like nothing's wrong or worth a sigh,
Though deep inside she's about to cry,
She went on and live with a lie.

She watched him with a blank face
Like everything's nice and was in place
Though she's a mess and heart on race,
She went on for those long days.

She was with him in a disguise
Like her actions were not made of lies,
Though it seems her heart slowly dies,
She went on and tried to rise.

She looked at me with a familiar eye
Like telling me she's real and not a lie,
Though bothered, I just asked why,
She went on and told me she was I.

-MCJ

Sorry for not smiling,
Sorry for not talking,
Sorry for being someone's friend,
Sorry for not liking what you like,
Sorry for being cautious,
Sorry for being simple,
Sorry for being happy,
Sorry for not being smart,
Sorry for having my own opinions,
Sorry for trying to be better,
Sorry for prioritizing myself,
Sorry for being to attached,
Sorry for knowing what I know,
Sorry for being fat,
Sorry for not being funny,
Sorry for being poor,
Sorry for not being cool,
Sorry for existing,
Sorry for breathing,
Sorry for being me,
And sorry for thinking you would say sorry too.

-MCJ

I never belonged in your life.
I'm  just a chapter that's about to end.
Or maybe I wasn't a chapter at all,
Just a single paragraph would do.
I know I don't have the right,
To feel hurt or sad,
For I am nothing and so is my heart.
I feel the burst of emptiness,
In almost every moment.
Please let me have peace,
And take my heart,
For it wasn't mine anymore,
Let me be just empty,
Cold, dark and numb.
Let me forget you.
Let me move on.
Let me be free.

-MCJ