I like this me better
The me who doesn't know how to act
Whether to act too old but look too young
I have no idea
It's very painful but i still like it
especially when the are yelling,
"what is with your dressing?"
but also saying,
"use your senses, you know more than this"
I'm obliged to act older but not look older
I think it is my fault I grew up quickly
Too quickly
Or maybe my surroundings were too mature for me.
I don't know who to be

Here lies the story of the most bombed human even though she never took drug or failed a test
The most ugly chick you will ever see among chicks that are  in a farm
People always said embrace your beauty
How about we change the line that sound like "you are such a cutey"
To embrace your body that was designed to be ugly
Embrace your face that was supposed to serve as courage
But instead, makes you feel like garbage.
You can't change you
Plastic surgery can, but it is just going to destroy a work of nature that you embody.
Embrace you, embrace yourself.

I am a robot
I do exactly what I'm told
I am a person that is owned
not by law or nature
but by a woman who has rules of her own
She tells me what to do and I obey.
She makes me cry and leaves me in dismay.
I can;t do anything because her wish is my command
I have to as she says
Most times, I'm always in pain
But she can alter me and make me feel grace
I feel like I owe her something in this phase
In order to feel less pain, I must pay
A price has to be made
It's a lot of chain I cannot break
Like a dog being tamed because of a chain
She kills my inner soul
my whole body, from head to toe
My life, my goal... she makes me feel like I am a waste zone
Break me, make me, chain me
I can't do anything unless I'm told
Because I am a robot that she owns

Yeah…
I might not be old
But my knowledge is really gold
Blessed by the future
Cursed by the past
My experience has become a lesson that will shape my present and present my future
…………….
I don't know
Do I really want this?
From experience I shouldn't
But isn't life all about taking risks?
That what I'm doing
Creating new opportunities
Overcoming the fear of unknown
Shaping an unknown destiny with one act, one decision, one question
Am I really sure?
Do I really wanna do this?
Is it worth it?
Is it worth my time and my future?
Is it worth my life, my fame and everything I will ever possess?
From experience it shouldn’t
But isn’t life all about taking risks?
and that's what I'm doing.
Wasting my time of something that I'm not really sure will lead me to my prime
Is it worth a quarter, a penny, a nickel, a dime?
Am I sure it is worth my life?
Do I really wanna be part of this pantomime?
From experience, it shouldn’t
But isn’t life all about taking risks
And that’s what I’m doing
Am I really sure this life is worth my time?

Okay..
Fine..
I'll admit it...
I made so many rules.
But when you came into my life,
they became choices.
I said I wasn't  going to fall in love with anyone,
but I drastically fell for you.
You didn't fall with me.
However, your attention softened me.
Every time you gave me absolute attention,
I felt tension build in my chest
tension became affection,
affection grew and became stronger,
breaking the wall of rules that I built to prevent people like you.
Now I gave you a choice to follow those rules that I made.
I still don't know if you fell for me.
Even though I prayed for a barricade,
my heart has become like silk;
soft and smooth accepting your love that will soon fade.
But you are so beautiful,
An imperfect creature that has been blessed with the hands of God.
You broke my rules,
But I know you won't want to see me ruin,
Because your intentions are not that cruel.