Okay..
Fine..
I'll admit it...
I made so many rules.
But when you came into my life,
they became choices.
I said I wasn't  going to fall in love with anyone,
but I drastically fell for you.
You didn't fall with me.
However, your attention softened me.
Every time you gave me absolute attention,
I felt tension build in my chest
tension became affection,
affection grew and became stronger,
breaking the wall of rules that I built to prevent people like you.
Now I gave you a choice to follow those rules that I made.
I still don't know if you fell for me.
Even though I prayed for a barricade,
my heart has become like silk;
soft and smooth accepting your love that will soon fade.
But you are so beautiful,
An imperfect creature that has been blessed with the hands of God.
You broke my rules,
But I know you won't want to see me ruin,
Because your intentions are not that cruel.

"YOU HAVE A B-" she yelled, "AFTER ALL MY EFFORT?"
"I tried my best"  I exclaimed,"  I PUT EFFORT TOO."
"NO YOU DIDN'T CAUSE IT IS HARD TO FAIL A GOOD STUDENT." she said increasing the rate of my heart beat as each words escaped from her mouth.
"SO MY BEST IF FAILING TO YOU?" I questioned her inferred theory
"NO, CAUSE THIS IS NOT YOUR BEST. ALL A's, THAT IS YOUR BEST. THIS... THIS.." she paused and took a deep breathe, "I DON'T KNOW WHAT THIS IS. YOU BETTER FIX IT. YOU MUST  MAKE IT BETTER.  MAKE IT MORE THAN YOUR BEST
MAKE IT GOOD ENOUGH."
"HOW!?" my voice could hardly escape from my throat.
"I DON'T KNOW! I DON'T CARE. JUST BE GOOD ENOUGH FOR ONCE IN YOUR LIFE.... MAKE ME PROUD, MAKE ME HAPPY, MAKE ME SMILE."
I'm trying..
I'm trying.

Why lie to me?
Instead of crying to me,
and saying that you was not right to me?
Don't think you can just buy me,
I ain't no chicken you can't just fry me.
I can't be manipulated except by God.
you see,
You were not my everything, you were just a part of me
Now I let you go because you weren't rhyming with my beat.
You were on another different flow, You weren't on my team.
Well, you thought you was "the GOAT" But you were just another boy that lost that girl that gave you so much love.
But, you gonna know what you lost when your friend are crying on the low.
They couldn't get me when I was once your own
Now that I left you, they out here creeping on the low.
Saying that they love me and I'm there only hope.
You should also use this opportunity to figure out who's the real bro...
or the one that will go behind your back to get your ex that they once called a ***.

I bet that if I asked you if you know me, you'd say yes
But really, I'm the only one that knows me the best
You think you do because of the way I act around you,
but truly, you are just being fooled.
That was my intention anyways
I am happy that it became true.
There are so many fake people and I won't let them get to me through you.
One thing that is true is that my heart is precious...
I don't know about you boo...

Today is the best day. I wrote my whole heart out and it erased all by itself. The pain. The pain.
"On this day, September 20, 2018, she suffered."

forget me, forget everything I said to you. Imagine they where all truthful lies that I spoke from my heart. Turn your back on me. Pass by me like a complete stranger,  like I don't exists. I will smile when you do this because you have made it easier for me to forget about you and all the things that made you YOU.

you, me
As the sunrises, as the sunsets,
sitting on the grass,
sharing our past present and future
opening up to each other and one day hoping
just hoping that we will meet each other twelve months from now with upgrade and happiness in our heart.
Just hoping.
Just hoping that we will be everyone's model
the relationship, the love, the trust,
the happiness and the little lust.
That we will still share that.
As time passes by and our body becomes ambiguous and wants to try something new,
Just hoping that we will stay together.
Just hoping
I mean.... at least we hoped.
I hoped.