I'll bring you face to face with the mirror
That your insecurities have spent years cracking, shattering
And I'll brush the shards of glass aside,
Remove the splinters from your eyes
In a way that finally shows you
You are beautiful,
You are loved,
You are enough.

I press my lips against your forehead as you sleep and dream and once again I evade sleep for I cannot face the thought of it taking me away from these moments, the moments I capture tightly with both hands and cram into the moving photographs of my heart.
Your hot skin tangled up in mine feels as cold as steel compared to the forest fires that dart through our veins, erupting in each other's hearts.
Amongst the debris, the ash, the embers, lies the very foundation of who we are apart and the inferno we are together.
You pull my body into your arms ablaze I free fall deeper and deeper into you, into me, for we, are as one.
The honesty and irrefutable truth of what we share and who we are together, brings sanctuary that could never be corrupted, comfort that distance could never waiver and a security that shall withstand any obstacle and endure strongly, the sifting sands of time.
There is no fear, no others near, no place but right here
With you, in the moments that we share, the gentle pulling of our hair, the whispers on the phone,
Every day we spend and taste a little bit of heaven as we envelope  each other and stare eye to twinkling eye with the love of the Angels.
Blanketed by truth
Sheltered by honesty
Living both inside and out
Each day stronger in our love.
You have proven to me, there are no shame in my scars and that they are beautiful as they are
During the times I feel most broken
You see beauty
I see myself with the same eyes
But you and the love you give
Makes me realise there is more to me
Than I've ever given myself credit for
You breath life straight through my soul and into the depths of me
I trust in you, in us
And every look we exchange, kiss we share, each conversation, measure of silence, each adventure and every magical moment that is in between,
Only makes me believe in us, in you, more.
You raise me high, give me wings to fly
And me,
I promise i will give you all the love you need and more, so you soar,
So high you taste the stars fizzing on your tongue.

I love you.

Words could never capture you,
Encapsulate you, encompass you
Because they are not strong enough
To withhold such beauty
They are too small to occupy
The love you carry
They are too trivial, too mundane
Too exhausted
To distinguish, define and denote
To embrace
Everything that I love,
Everything that I believe in,
Everything that matters,
Everything that is you.

Every time we say goodbye
I'm terrified
It'll be for the last time

No matter how lost I am
You always guide me home.

Every time we kiss I taste happiness on my lips.

Me?
I was born a storm
A whirlwind of inner turmoil
Tsunamis tripping off my tongue.

You deserve more than ink scribbled on paper
Thoughts crammed in spaces
Black letters on a page
A heavy handed mass of words.

She extinguished the furnace of ashes that others had left smouldering in me for years.

Lesson one: give your heart to someone who gives theirs back. And hell she'll give you her heart on her sleeve, with a magic that allows you to conceive, real love, the kind that others dream of, the kind you look above and wish upon a star for, everything you wanted, she'll give you more.
Lesson two: find eyes that embody a maze that you could get lost in for days. And as you gaze at each other, you are no longer dazed by anxieties and caution signs because she reads through the lines and untangles and unwinds knots others have left behind.
Lesson three: lust is not love but when you find both, grab them tight. Because for the first time in your life you'll feel as though you got something right and as you see her in sight and she sets you alight with just one look, take note of the tattered heart she willingly took, the time she gave up to read into and not judge by the cover of your book.
Lesson four: always hold the door but never hold back. Hold the door for opportunity and unity in a way you could never construe existed, because within moments she'll have your eyes misted, your vision twisted, into the future, you see yourselves sharing, and those walls that she's tearing down will form new foundations for you to find your own ground.
Lesson five: tell her everyday how beautiful you think she is. Because with every day that passes, through each lens of her glasses she'll develop a tainted view and this time it's up to you to offer her your eyes, to help her see and realise, her beauty inside. Inside the body you adore, the woman you'd do anything for.
Lesson six: love is meant to last. So run her a bath, fill up her glass, do the dishes, commend her wishes, lay her fears to rest as she curls into your chest, calm the wars in her mind, undo and unwind with the love that you find in a fountain overflowing with her name, show her your game, not now but for forever, that whatever the weather, you will be there, show her you care and if you tried you couldn't care any more, tell her every day what you're grateful for.
Lesson seven: draw a line under the faults your find for she is only human too, let her know you love her through and through.
Lesson eight: show her. Kiss her, hold her, brush your fingers through her hair and stare into her eyes, as they sparkle and shine as the milk and honey on her lips and yours become entwined. For her make time, all the time in the world, because only once, will you find this girl, this lady, the one that you'll say, made you into the person you always wanted to be, who gave you eyes to see, only once will you find this lady, who will set you free, allow you to be all that you can be, and you shall do the same for her too, only once do you find the other half of you.

I can still taste you on my lips
Your sweet scent laced across my fingertips.
Honey dew gathering in the places that we kissed.

She ignited a fire in me
That I prayed
She would never extinguish.

How captivating it is
To watch the sun who was told she must love the sky, to fearlessly defy,
To fall to her knees,
Ignoring others pleas and
With all in sight
Kiss the earth goodnight.

So what is recovery?
Is it that tingle in your cheeks
When the corners of your mouth meet
Upwards.
Is it that sparkle in your eyes
Because they're no longer suffocated by your cries and you now have the potential to realise
You are strong.
Is it that glimpse of light, that for so long had been out of sight, that you cling onto tight, through fear
It's only temporary.
Is it rediscovering yourself, rebuilding your health and developing a new wealth
Of coping mechanisms.
Is it realigning the chemical imbalances in your brain, so you no longer feel insane, so there's not less pain
But a mind that can handle it.
Is it the glimpse in the mirror where you don't turn in horror but you greet and honour the person that you are.
Is it the fear, that's consumed you year by year, that's brought the end so near,
That starts to evaporate.
Is it eating a meal, and not having to feel like
You need to punish yourself.
Is it hearing voices, but no longer allowing them to dictate your choices,
Because they don't own you anymore.
Is it putting down the bottle, because you're fed up of the throttle
It had you in.
Is it the feeling when you finally win
Back your own heart and mind
When finally you look inside
And don't find
Darkness but light,
When the night no longer scares you
And the days you can finally pull through
Or is it simply a phase
A gaze at what could never be
For there is no clarity,
No prospect to be free
In chains and nooses
And scars and bars.
In bodies that fight to survive
Trapped inside a mind that fights to take our lives.

Some of us; shall never be undone
We fight a war;
That could Never be won.

You dig your sharp soiled nails
Deep into all of my insecurities
So deep
The reality that I will never be free
Crashes over
And drowns me.

There's no better feeling than waking tangled up in her skin.

She's the kind of woman that makes you want to evade sleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.

How captivating it is
To watch the sun who was told she must love the sky, to defy, because despite the questions why, she knows it feels right, so she kisses with all her might, with all in sight, the earth every single night.

Look into my eyes,
There are no lies,
I have nothing to hide,
Allow your worries to subside
And wash away,
In me,
An Ocean of sanctity, security, honesty.

When I say I want you
I don't just mean right here, right now,
I mean
I want all of you, from now until we're nearing the end of our lifeline, so we can replay and rewind the hands of time and get lost and reminisce, seal our memories with a kiss and smile in bliss.

I want you when you're smiling
And laughter is tumbling down your chin, when you bear your heart on your sleeve and cautiously invite me in. So I can carefully clasp it in my palms and disable the ringing of alarms, your concerns and qualms.
I want you when you're crying
Head in hands, fed up with the demands of day to day life, when struggles are rife. So I can get down on my knees, answer your pleas, anxieties cease, and place your hands in mine, as we unravel and unwind, the confusions in your mind.
I want you when you're insecure, when your wondering should I want more, when your unsure as to why it is that I adore, you. So I can carefully reassure that you are everything I've ever wanted and more and tell you one by one everything about you that I am grateful for.
I want you through the frustrations and accusations because we live in a nation that can be too small to accept, the love shared between our chests, because we both have *******.
I want you when you're wide awake at three in the morning, life's stresses and messes portrayed in the concern masking your smile. So I can walk each and every mile needed to reconcile your inner peace.
I want you when your fast asleep, where our bodies meet and greet each other in the most beautiful of embraces. So I can capture and appreciate the wonder of fate  and the miracles it makes as the ground shakes and my heart forsakes everything it was and everything it could be, because you now own it in its entirety.

I want you in a million and one spaces, places, pauses, causes.

I want you through and through, I want you, everything you think, feel, do,
I want you irrevocably, inexorably, infinitely.
For as long as you shall have me.

I had no idea what I was looking for, I just knew that you were it.

The dress clung to me
As I stood
Lost
Staring, staring back at the stranger
The mirror offered a glimpse
Of me,
The messed up stranger smiled
With heartbreak resting on each drugged eyelid
Pain
Coagulating in each vein
Every vein.
The stranger tore her dress
My arm became cold, so cold.
My heart became frozen,
Broken,
This time beyond repair.

It goes forward
But never back
Try as you may
You won't make up for
that of it, you lack.
When it’s broken
It’s right twice a day
You cannot hold into it
You cannot take back what you say.
It can seem really quite long
And really quite short
You can be too busy to think
Or have enough
To be deep in thought.

You can wish and wish
But only if recorded
can you momentarily rewind
You can search the entire planet
But never enough of it
Shall you find.

Time makes memories
of everything.

Faith has a pulse that never stops beating

The next time someone asks you if you're okay
And you routinely go to say
I'm fine,
Hold your tongue,
You're doing no wrong,
By simply being human.

Beneath the surface
I start to boil,
My inner turmoil,
The tangled weeds,
Overgrown in the soil
Of my mind
Begin to unravel and unwind
And once again I am at risk
Of losing myself
Amongst poison ivy,
Planted by the lies
you told me.

Your lies coagulated in my veins.

Everything I am, everything I shall be,
Everything I was, everything you see,
I give to thee
Irrevocably.

Just the sound of your voice
Causes the corners of my lips
To rejoice
Upwards.

If we balanced our beliefs
Based on our griefs
Maybe we would cease
Fire.
Maybe the pleas,
And the consequences of dire,
Would be enough to aspire
To a better place,
To a new face
In that of justice.

A house isn't a home unless you're there.

You ignite a light so bright
it brings the sun to its knees
every single night.

There are some things that poetry cannot capture and recreate
Like the pull towards you,
The knowledge of fate.
Like the feeling of your hands laced through mine
As our bodies lay pressed against each other, entwined, as we discover each other, paying attention to signs of trespass, and tread carefully, as we free one another of insecurity.
Like the electricity that radiates from my lips, right down to my hips, every time we kiss.
Like the dragonflies, that dance through my insides every time i look deep into your eyes and straight through your soul.
Like the sound of your voice, as we sit and rejoice at the concept of choice, that we both offer one another.
Like the feeling of your lover, feeling like your best friend, never wanting the day to end, because time cannot comprehend how magical each moment is.
Like wanting to unravel and undress every thought that has the ability to compress your realities, wanting to untangle your anxieties, reassuring you, you're safe with me, and that your heart is in the best possible hands, that it could be.
Like not wanting to even sleep because the reality that we keep, puts to shame any dream, sewing the seams, of the future we had both hoped for and not yet found, the skip in our walk as we find our solid ground and the sanctity of knowing, you're sticking around.
Like the ability to bottle up your scent so for the time that we spent apart, I could taste you, and restart my heart.
Like the feeling you give, when you provide me with, the desire to not just survive but to live and give myself entirely.
Like the beauty you exude, every time you walk into a room, a flower in full bloom, and mine to behold, the inabailty to withhold such an insatiable light, to capture someone that shines so bright.
Like the the feeling of pride, that beams inside, every time I have you, fingers locked, walking by my side. The lack of divide, arms open wide as we subside in eachother.

She took the stars right out of the sky and planted them in the pupils of my eyes.

You make the ordinary extraordinary.

Love is giving someone your heart, in all its fractured pieces, and trusting them not to shatter it further.

I have never been so content at the prospect of drowning
Until I realised I was doing so in you.

Now don't get me wrong
I cant draw and when it comes
To putting a paintbrush to paper
I can form nothing of great worth
But one form of art I will always excel in
Produce masterpieces in, outshine every one else in,
Is the art of loving you.

The way my name sounds
Sliding across your tongue
And
Departing from your lips
The way it feels as you draw it out
Of your hot breath and into the cold air and place it gently in the cove of my neck

Knocks me off my feet
Every single time

Poetry is creating words that flow through fingertips and onto the paper as rivers do into the ocean.

If you were a book
I would run out of ink underlining all of my favourite things about you.

She was beautiful in the destroying an entire city but illuminating the entire sky kind of way.

It was as though her touch set my body ablaze
Forest fires spreading through my veins
Dragon flies alight
Dancing in the remains.

I spent years building up a picture of you
A scenic view
Only to open my eyes and realise
The holes in the cracks
The gaps in the tracks
You'd fell through

There was something about you
That tore open my chest, pulled out my heart
And stamped it onto my sleeve
An experience I was uncomfortable, unfamiliar with
But that allowed us to conceive
The beginning
Of something I knew I would never encounter again
You took your name
And without any pain
Etched it into the cavities of my beating heart
And with one glance into your eyes
I knew it was the most spectacular piece of art
That I would ever possess,
You created the most beautiful of masterpieces
Right beneath my chest.

You scribbled out my innocence
With poisoned ink
That flowed from your tongue
Lies wrapped in little green ribbons
Tumbling from the corners of your lips
Trickling down your chin
Until eventually,
You started tripping over them.

Sometimes I feel as though
I'm losing you,
As though you're slipping straight through my fingertips
And out of my grasp
That those moments that I cherished
Were here and gone all too fast

And yet each time I open my eyes
I realise,
You were never mine to lose
And these battles that I face and chose
And the ease you have to confuse
Comes with the price
Of having to sacrifice
Reality and my sanity
For a fantasy that never was
And never will be.
Your lies are an ocean
Washing over me
Drowning me at sea
And the hardest part?
I know I shall never be free.

You cascade over me like a waterfall

A poet in love
is like an arsonist
With a match in his hand.

I wish i could capture the way you look at me
And cram it into a frame
So that i could wake up feeling
Beautiful, every single day.