"What is wrong with you?" she wanted to shout "How could you do this to me?" she wanted to shout "I'm a child too!" she wanted to shout "You're the adults, why do you burden me?" she wanted to shout "Love you too, goodnight," she said instead
She smiles because she's your go-to child The one that gets all the praise The one who accepts all your rage Even as she's growing You won't ever know it Because hormones are bad And mood-swings won't ever be had Even though she hates it She smiles as she fakes it Her facade or innocence Is quite actually painfully brilliant She has everyone around her finger Though the tightness of it always stings her She smiles as she's called sweet Kind and lovely Smart and hardworking Honest and trustworthy Strong and preserving Beautiful and genuine Because she's not she's Mean and unlikeable Dumb and lazy A liar and unhonest Ugly and fake But somehow no one sees Her broken and horrid self Through her sickly sweet Kind and innocent Full of joy and love Fake facade
No matter how much I deny it There's truly no reason to fight it I am my father's child Even if we don't align What's mine is yours and your is mine Even if I hate your soul Mine is growing into it's mold Even if I hate your skin Mine is just as paper thin No matter if we have the same brain We just can't be the same I fear I will grow into you Grow into a knot monster that nothing can undo Your praise is what I crave A drug numbing my brain I'll always adore you Even if I'm scared of you Even if I want nothing to do with you Even if my fears come true And I turn into you
Every night as the stars are hung I run to your gaslighting arms I kiss you manipulating cheeks Because I love you and you make me feel seen I chop off all my limbs Gifting you them so your glow will never dim I realize your the worst But loving you is my curse Realization dawns like the sunrise And to no one's surprise I come running back every night
I love you I love you and I trust you I love you and I trust you so I tell you everything Even though I love you and I trust you you're not trustworthy I love you and I trust you but if I don't tell you What you want to hear I'm scared you won't care I'm scared you're going to hate me I'm scared you're going resent me I'm scared you'd get mad But I tell you anyway And I bare the consequences Because I love you and trust you Because I love you and I trust you so much I hate you But I can't hate you Not even if I wanted to Not even if I genuinely do