The vivid darkness of nightfall amplifies since the day you left,
the warmth in my being slowly fades likes a hot cup of tea in winter breeze,
each moment my mind brushes a glimpse of the smiles we shared and moments we held each others hand,
my tears runs down my cheeks as broken faucets,
raindrops on an autumn rain.

The first few minutes of our departure are the easiest i can say, but the rest is hell.
so hellish that all the things I cherished in the world turned against me.
betrayed me in a way as hurtful as stabbing me in the heart while saying you care for me,
you love me,
and you will never leave my side,
knowing that it is all just comforting lies.

Walking in circles not knowing where to go,
my eyes gets blurry from the steam of my own warm tears,
holding a cup of milktea with its melting ice,
like how my sanity melts in deep dark void.

Soon enough I know that this will all end, the circles I am walking into will form a path that will lead me to eden,
hoping that before my sanity melts I get to see the light at end of this deep dark void,
and when that time comes I know I can meet you with a smile on my lips and thank you for how much you make me strong.

the day you sprouted into my life,
I was intrigued by you immediately,
like a newly grew seed of ivy,
it invaded my lawn without fail.

but just like many lawns that needs mowing,
I tried to shake off your existence.
planting roses and daffodils, but to no avail,
ending up fertiziling the feelings i have for you.

your untamed and cheerful nature,
enthralls me even more towards you;
And as your vines crazily crawls unpredictedly,
I steadily stood my ground to stop it.

but still, I once again failed.
Like a kid who's slowly being binded,
binded by the love i feel,
a love like vines that I know would never bloom.

but as time goes by, and day by day has come,
I'm learning to live by the vines,
the binds started to become ropes,
ropes to move up to sunshine.

As the vines nurtures even futher,
and starts to burgeon lilac colored flowers,
I'm starting to understand the untamed and cheerful nature,
is for it to bear blooms that are delicate and precious.

When they are doubting my path,
And start gossipping like rats,
"Are those just the proofs of his guts?"
"Or he haven't shown what he got?"

As I hone skills for future,
And seek advices from mentors,
School helps me with my ventures,
And showered redefined gestures.

Everyone should attend school.
For not just for us to be cool,
But to never make ourselves fool;
Knowledge that makes anyone  whole.

Everyday is the beginning,
It's an overflowing blessing,
As we continue with learning,
Success will surely come running.

So even if everyone doubt,
And even if you shut your mouth,
Just let your wisdom do the shout,
In the end you'll always stands out.

I almost forgot the feeling,
The feeling of vision running,
The glimpse of images passing,
Chills that has been never-ending.

How did I end up in this mess?
Trapped in a curse of deep darkness,
Doomed to be stricken by blindness,
Not just by sight but truthfulness.

All lies that befalls my torment.
What do I feel of this moment?
A Solitary Confinement.
Caged, thrown and lost in current.

The things that happened makes me think,
Should I go on and find the link?
Or should I let it go and sink?
I'll seek the truth and never blink.

Loner, Weird and Timid that's how people address me. If not in the upper left corner sit in our school auditorium where nobody can notice, you can find me behind the farthest shelf in the library. It's not because I'm hiding or something. It's just for me, being alone is convenient.

Loneliness is my Sanctuary, my Haven, my Paradise, or so I think. I don't really mind. I'm happy with the presence of every character in the stories that I read. I'm already preoccupied with enough drama, excitement and adventure that I get in the different worlds that I've been in the comfort of this bench in the bleachers or the behind of this shelf.

If the cosmos requires me to interact with my fellow **** sapiens, I often do nothing to caught their attention. The last time i was in this realm I'm in the middle of name calling by those so called "Alphas" that think that they're so great. I even got bruises when one of them pushed me. I don't mind. I won't be in this realm for long anyway. Once this is all done I will be again in the comfort of my Sanctuary, fighting alongside the allied force for the safety of the Galaxy.

Endure it, endure it, don't fight back, use your brain rather than brawns, you can't defeat them in brawl just endure this until they got bored. Whew, this is harder than the ambush that  the alliance experience when they were in the asteroid belt. But I can do this. I'm just a little bit dizzy and a bit hurt mostly in my head, wait what's this? Blood? That stupid alpha gotten too far. I must evacuate. I must..

Where am I? Where is this?
"So you're awake now cadet." Who's that? "You've fallen unconscious on the ambush in the asteroid belt but now you're awake" what? The last thing I remember is that I'm in the middle of the bloodthristy alpha in our school ground. I guess I'm a cadet of the alliance now. I don't get it but at least I'm in the happy place now.

Gushing through the wave of endless sorrow,
I lift my head to the sky and gaze.
Looking upon the void that left me in amusement,
I exclaimed, "stars do shine the brightest when we were in total darkness".

I want to be with you.
Very deep in my heart i know, that
Your smile gives my day its glow.

I like being with you.

Losing myself just by your glance,
Offering my soul is not enough.
Vines that wraps around my heart,
Every beat of it is yours to take.

You're my sunshine, and starlight
Oh, my dear love, i will not fail,
Until end, its only you, my nightingale.

Clear night sky.
Absence of stars?
Not. Lack of our vision it is.

The darkness illuminates the path, from which I'm about to walk.
Moving blindly in the middle of nowhere, not knowing where to go.

As my mind was filled with fears and doubt, I saw a light from a torch.
Glowing dimly from afar, I followed.
Hoping that it will lead me to somewhere fulfilling, I ran.
Faster and faster I go, leading me to a cliff from which I fall.

As I dropped to my deep slumber
at the end of the rocky pit, I realized,
That the torch that I saw was the moon shrouded in fog.

I grinned and laugh in my own foolishness,
and thought that the hope that I seek was the end that I longed.

Looking in to the mirror of forever,
through the shattered remnants of the past and the future.
Longing for something that can never be conquered.
Like the fortress of euphoria that the heavens cover.

In a cloudy, eerie midnight darkness,
where only starlight illuminates the sky's broadness.
I venture to the realm of never ending sadness.
only to fall prey to hungry hyena's of loneliness.

As every part of myself shred to bits and pieces,
blood and tears shed for my own helplessness.
I started to realize that the tears are not for the pain of ruptures,
but for the pain of the heart that has loss it's purpose.

As I lie down and weep to the pain of loneliness and sadneness.
The sky's cleared up, moonlight shines the heaven's darkness.
I conclude that this is just part of the consequences,
of whether I really deserve to be in the euphoric fortress.