My home is like a fragile dream
A map scattered in my mind
How could it be a part of me
When there, I can find no sign?
I know there exists the beauty I seek
For it teases and leaves me yearning
For it, my heart has learned to speak
The tongues I would be let down in
I watch my days and years pass
Waiting for better ones to come
Now I'm looking back at the grass
And the sand and the shining sun
Am I not strong or am I too worn
Who is around to tell..?
God is a question I'm counting on
To send me answers at hell
Dare I wish for love to feel?
It comes and goes like waves
And leaves behind some parts to heal
Not quite the things I craved
Chemicals flowing in my body
Menace my emotional raft
Create memories with nobody
And overwhelm me till I laugh
However the truth I accept it now
I was born deviant and wrong
You can't combine the sky and ground
With things that don't belong
I don't mind the lies I'm told
You'll find my inner face alit
From the heat I take when truth unfolds
As long as I have someone to play with
This is the journey of a person trying to find companionship in anything possible... In their own mind, their experiences, the past and present, their memories, their self, their God, in love and friendships, in drugs and in nature. It concludes that the inner real self of the person feels much stronger as long as they have a companion even if they are lie