This is so hard
Different than i thought
Maybe I'm just not suited here
Outcast!
That's what I am

My poems,
If they even worthy enough to be called one.
They can't even compare to the poems here.
Maybe I'm not suited here
Outcast!
That's what I am

I want my words to flow like yours
For everyone to read with hungry eyes
Respect my work
But maybe I'm not suited here
Outcast!
That's what I am

Don't look at me
with those hypnotic eyes
forcing me to fall weak

Don't speak to me
with that entrancing voice
that portrays lies, spells that lures me to you

Don't hold me
with that enchanted touch
that keeps me spellbound

Don't kiss me at night
with the moon bright outside
as it gives you power and temptation

Don't try
for I know the truth
I know what you are

Time to hide again
To place her mask on
That shines beautiful smiles
For hundreds of miles

But her eyes
How could they betray her?
The hurt and weariness stays
For everyone to gaze

Years of hurt and suffering
She is too weak to keep it in
Tears fall from her eyes
From her soul that slowly dies

No one would take her serious
For they won't understand
No one should hear her cries
If so, she simply denies

Time to hide again
To place her mask on
But it's slowly breaking
By her heart that's aching

"It's not the words of the bully that hurt me
It's the silence of my friends"

Oh dear luster.

Today I felt your lips after a long time. The immediate intimacy is still there but this time i felt another on your lips, you did not taste like how I remembered you. I looked into your eyes and I did not see me, so I kept them closed but still I could feel another on your lips.
I could feel her because you tasted like regret, I could feel her because you touched me with remorse. So I looked into your eyes once more but all I saw was thirst. You had me turnt me into a savage - one that knew nothing about feelings for it was never practiced. It died within and it was then I realise the regret and remorse I tasted on you came from within me, how could I have let you in again after I knew you will never by my lover for you only practice lust.

You're my luster

"I have it all but yet I can't have her"