The air is changing
It's dense and tense
I wish I could just shut it out

Yet the four remain around me
Isolation for some time would be nice
I want to enjoy it all yet it's not exactly that easy

Dreams and showers are seemingly the only time when I can breathe freely

I'm where I want to be
The happy place
I've returned after two years
Much has changed
Many things have not

The sights of skyscrapers
The scent of green tea and fumes
All seems like home to me as I walk through the city

Yet I cry
Smiling comes from time to time
Fake it until you make it comes into play as I'm asked how I am
Silent screams of loneliness
Tears of yearning
For things just beyond my reach

I'm falling into the darkness while in my happy place
When I return 'home' it will be worse

Isolation
Pain
Frustration
Fear

All this fills my mind as I wave goodbye to Tokyo
Kyoto is to come
A spark of joy and excitement

Yet why am I dying when I'm in my happy place

Tokyo & Kyoto

Tears can be shed
Cries of anguish and hate
All from one thought that causes it
Chain Reaction
A never ending spiral of thoughs

Mama, Mama
Sweet smiles and laughter
A slow change in time and distance

Papa, Papa
Recurring absences
Assumptions that you've forced onto me

Sometimes I want to have a functional family
Sometimes I am glad it is this way
Otherwise I may have not met the people I know and love today

Thank you

What do you see when...
Nevermind
I wonder if we'll ever see the same again

I'm running from Time
I'm running out of air
I'm running out of reasons to love you

I can hear the cracking sound at night
Every time the door closes behind me I wonder if it could be the last
What do you really think?

Our truths are not the same
I feel like we aren't of one mind anymore
I want to stay but your effort is decreasing

It does not feel nice
Should I be running?
Or should I be letting you go?

It'll be a new beginning for us both soon
Time is changing
Time for laughter has turned into time to leave

This Feeling
Something that seems to be immortal
No cries
No words
No actions
It stays as I struggle

I ask myself
Why must it be this way?
Why is it that I feel wrong
At school
At home
At mine

Indestructable
Unstoppable
Ever changing as I adapt
I've come to accept it
I've come to understand it
I've come to welcome it

Yet when I see you
I want to be alone with you
Yet I know that is something I cannot have