Wrestling until exhaustion.

I run miles, never taking a step

Even salt tastes like sand

Constant stillness to push me past precedent markers.

               You do refine with fire.

Unattended

You took his hand

Dark shadows danced

Now your left

Just a shell of before

Holding hands won't fix it
&
"You didn't mean it", isn't true

Your words aren't stitches

Not even band-aids

They're just words.

If I was there, he couldn't take all of you

You just needed somebody

Everyone needs somebody
Everyone needs

Me

Im never there
Not even for myself.

Show your face

Im beyond belief

Should I stare into your eyes

Sculpting hands

That made me

Mending love

You call me into seclusion
To water my flowers

Cover me

Im bare with you
Wet skin and buds

Don't make sense of my madness
it's just

Hearts rushing
Senses revealed
Breathing flowing
Flowers blooming
Birds chirping

Wakening from a long sleep

New mornings
New dawns

So, don't you mind

it's just

New birth in me
New birth in me

"What do you really want?"

I was embarrassed to respond emptily

"What does your soul pray for?"

To finally admit I'm of air

It's all show and no well

You cant dive in me

Im ankle deep

You rest in voices and visions
Mixing my reality with yours
Now dreams and days blend smoothly
With indistinguishable taste

Whoman
Wooman
Wombman
Whyman
Woeman

Woman

Fathers without fathers
Hurt daughters

Daughters without fathers
Feel even farther

From The Father

Who was never
Far at all

I need your soft voice
I need it still

I need your soft voice
Heavy and Steel

To take and to tame
I see the beach and the waves

Healing my wounds
Changing my name

Closespacesmakeyouanxious
Thesqueezingofmyexpectations
Pressurein­myswingingmoods
Myselfishnessslamsdoors
Myheatshutswindows
I’mver­ytight,small
Shrinkingismygift
Iadorethatinstinct
Yourescape
Self-survival
Da­rwinism

Inhale:
Rouge petals and dancing light
Aromas of the deep and caresses of feathers

Penetrating endearing gazes
Iron words and glass scripture

In quick gusts, I’m caught up
Breathlessly engulfed, all suddenly

It’s gospel

Mumbles of truth from higher dimensions
Real breakthrough in the deepest of places

The wind is gone
There is peace

There is healing here

Rest in my discovery
&
Comfort in my wake

Exhale.