The weeks quickly turned to months
As the air became thicker by the day
And this facade I played became me
I converted to the deceiver of my soul
In this life that grew into a stage

But as the dawn would set in daily
The reality I hid would unveil itself
And my thoughts rained on my mind
Like a thunder storm rumbling inside
My hand would grasp the bottle

I would drink from this glass
As if it were liquid gold from the gods
In attempts to quell the lightning
To seize the screaming within my bones
So that I could escape into a dream

Yet as quickly as I would fall away
I’d find myself right here in my room
A cocoon in my sheets on my bed drenched
By the sweat of all the demons I fought
In the slumber that was better than my head

The storm may be fierce and the darkness might be terrifying, but eventually the clouds will part to show sunshine and a beautiful rainbow of hope.

My pen is a blade and the paper is my skin, my words cut deep as the blade does my wrist.

On the lake of failure I lay
Looking down at the depths of resentment that's beneath
This lake is called the lake of Selfishness
The name that you gave it
It's polluted with insults and cursed blood
Toxins all around
What once was a beautiful scene
Is now a horrifying tomb

Afloat of this lake of darkness
I hear the norm
"Everything with you is failure"
"You care about no one, you're selfish"
"You're a horrible person"
"You will die alone"

So I look down at the chain that I hold
And I let go
Down you go
To the bottom of the trap you've set
What you've created, begins to choke you

This dying lake is your mark
The death that swims underneath is all yours
Now feel the norm
See the pollution
You begin to drown
You ask for my help
But I'm selfish, a failure, will die alone, and I'm a horrible person
So I let you sink
Down down you go
To the grave you've dug so long ago
Sleep at last
In your lake of hate