i had a dream once
but now i am awake

There lies the truth between the lines
or maybe they are lies
Maybe you found them
or maybe i made them find you
Its like an awakening at times
all the emotions unitise
Get high on the sprinklers of deceit which i spell on you
while i weave your reality like a web
the only way out is - that you cannot.

She'd written a verse
   on wandering love;
      of hearts that yearned to stray--
         it spoke of home, and now I yearn
            for all that she has
               to say.

****** my mind
Waste my time

Pull me close
Push me away

Walk into my life
Hastily run away

Show me you are different
Convince me that you are the same

Repair my heart
Tear it apart

I look at the dark side

I expect disappointment

I see that true colors always hide

I fear attachment

I know words always contradicts actions

I have discovered that happiness only turns into sadness

Beautiful clouds hold rain

It's a tragedy waiting to happen

The only way to be saved is to save yourself

I can't be loved if I don't love myself

I never found who I am

So how did I lose myself?

How can something so shallow create depth ?

My mindset is mindless

I have reached my limit

Now I'm boundless

I know my worth

But somehow you made me feel worthless

I was full of energy

But somehow you made me feel drained

So why do I settle for less ?

It's because I'm use to pain ...

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Don't be a mud on road
be a rainbow in the sky
Master what and why

~~~Jawahar Gupta~~~

Haven’t you ever seen a knife before?
She slowly pushed it closer to me.
''Yes, I have seen one once before''
I think in my head of all the times I had picked up this knife, at night, in the afternoon and in the morning when I felt alone.
She pushed it closer once more.
Tempting me, she knew I was trying to stay away from this knife.
She, isn't even a person, she is apart of me.
A small part of me, trying to push me into the habit again.
I'm fighting it, I always will.