You look at me like im the first thing you've ever seen
You stare at me like you can't believe
Thinking of you is like christmas morning
...Butterflies fluttering inside that im not ignoring
Lying down right next to you dont want no space between us
And I want to know what you're thinking
What are you feeling? I need to know it's a must
Then I glance in the sky and I swear there is fairy dust
Glittery speckles of you and I*
Beautiful emeralds with diamonds and I just know they are floating from us
But as hard as they may try they will never shine like us
Sometimes I can't believe that you think I'm gorgeous
Touching me so gentle
Hold me tight dont let me go
I want to listen to you breathing
I want to hear if you are thinking
Tell me what you're thinking
Am I in your head if you're thinking
And if I am did I do what I was supposed to
I wanna be the one your close to
Can I be the one you walk to
I want to be your everything
I want to give you, your every need
I want your heart
*Do u trust me?

Crumbled papers scattered on my floor
Writing two words and replacing them with three more
Calluses on my fingers from clutching my pen
Sayin to my self tell him how and when
Writing is my thing...whats going on here
The feeling is here but the words aren't near
I want to write you the most beautiful love poem
But the problem is I don't have the words
There are none
Not one word to describe how I feel
I love you.....



-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyright 2016

In the summer I was so hot that i couldn't breathe. I couldn't move...gasping for air on my knees.
There I was stuck in that burning hot place where you left me.
There was no cool breeze and comfy hoddies  in that fall for me.
I was still burning under the merciless sun.
But winter I felt. So surely I was cold and grey. Frozen. Wishing upon a star for the summer sun to melt the iceberg I became.
So I could start my search and find it again.
Seeking comfort in those who are not my friend. I had chased the untrue because it was better than you.
Then there was spring. It rained and it poured. Certainly I was drained but thankfully I had found a new door. I was allowed to dwell no more.
Now summer is here once again. But this time it is my friend. The summer sun kisses my skin. I flow through effortlessly. I have found my serenity. It never left....I had to find it inside of me.
-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

I saw my city today through a birds eye.
I was tall...wayyy up high.
Precipitation didn't bother me.
My view was filled with mother nature's beauty.
The clouds drizzled wet stuff.
As I admired the skyline it seemed fair enough.
And in the far beyond where the buildings met with the sky.
They intertwined with grace. As they entertained my doting eye.
I watched people with there comes and goes.
I noticed many places I've been but still had I don't knows.
I saw my city through a birds eye.
There is plenty green and hardly smoke.
I saw a glimpse of heaven in that far beyond.
Perhaps you were there looking right at me and that is why the far beyond was magical to me.
RIP



-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

Everything I said to you
Everything I did to you*
Everything I have done for you
                        

                            *....­it was all for us


And I don't regret it
If I could I'd do it one hundred times more


             I will always love you


No matter what



-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

She used to think she needed a man
She needed a man to cater
She used to believe in no goodbyes
But I'll see you later
She wanted to connect with everyone she'd met
Without even knowing them yet
She couldn't be alone
Because she yearned for someone to call her home
Every time she was lied to
There was one person she could cry to
And one day she realized
She finally oped her pretty brown eyes
Standing tall holding her hand
Next to her was not a man
But her best friend
Her rock
Not born blood but it comes no thicker
She always had unconditional love
They stand together
Pretty as doves
She knows now she needs no man

Where's my lantern?
The sun is gone and I can't see
Where's home from here?
No coordinates when everything's black
Lost in the black sea
Lost in the black deep
When I can't see
It hurts
It hurts so bad
And nobody seems to understand
So ill hurt
And hurt some more
And ill quietly wail
And inside ill weep
When I feel weak
Lost in the black deep
Where's my lantern?
So I can see..

No light inside of me
It flickers...it flickers
Running on fumes
Livin on fumes
Heart beats on fumes
I've lost my tune
The floor isn't under my feet
Falling in the black deep
Lost in the black deep
Silently I will weep
And I quietly scream
Coz nobody cares or understands
Always comparing their pain to mine
Its not so bad they say
As the floor disappears from under my feet
And I slowly fall
As I quietly weep
And Silently scream
Stuck in the black deep

Heart racing
Feet pacing
Mind going a mile a minute
Trying to make sense of this thing I feel
Staring at my telephone
Everytime it goes off I want it to be you
So cold and so hot
I love you
Even though you love me not



-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

I watch you grow everyday,  I try to make you smile all the way.
I can see you learning, I can see you try.
I can see the love in your eyes..even when you cry...
I will be your music, when the raido goes out I'll forever sing your favorite song.
My sweet child your're right where you belong.
Little girl i love you and you know it's true.
Yes.. I know you're different but it only makes you better!! A special kind of love....my colorful dove.
So innocent, so pure..I couldn't ask for more.
Mommy's here to help you, I saw you grow today.
It was the sweetest sound you uttered away.
Come on baby say it..Mommy knows you can. I'm here cheering for you..your #1 fan.
Take my hand and hold it tight. Mommy's gonna protect you with all her might.
I saw you grow today. I seen you learn today.



-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

I watch her while she is sleeping.
She smiles when she's dreaming.
I ponder what she's thinking.
She turns over..to feel if I'm still with her.
Beautiful, I won't leave you. I'm at your mercy forever.
She's got me wrapped arround her finger.
For her I will always linger.
It breaks my heart..she crys when I am leavin'.
Baby, I'll be right back..your the one who keeps me breathin'.
She always makes my day.
She's the reason I try in everyway.
I'm the luckiest mom in the world.
Because of my darling babygirl.*


-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

I imagine you and I soaring through the night like flying stars do.
And I picture you taking I on a magic carpet ride.
Through your city and mines.
Into both of our beautifully dangerous minds.
Tell me your secrets..and I'll tell you mines.
Tell me I'm beautiful again.
Please no lies.
Show me your demons..and I shall reveal mine.
For they reside in my eyes.
I'll look into yours if you look into mine.
Beautiful poet until you die.
I won't tell you a lie.*



-Jennifer DeAngelo
*Copyrighted 2016

She is moon queen of the darkest night.
She makes unicorns in the moonlight.

He is ruler of both dark and light.
He uses dragons breath when he has to fight.
He turns it into an angels hum.
Beautiful whispers for her ear drum.
*** pum pum pum.

In the dry desert sun.
They are devine.
Two of one kind.
Together they can scribble outside the lines.


-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

Write after write
Scribble after Scribble
Stuck in my thoughts
My words are stuck
I just can write them down
Cramps in my hands
Callus on my finger
Words ran away
Left my thoughts to linger
I want to write a beautiful goodbye
But all i have to say is
I miss you
And why


-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyright 2017

Write after write
Scribble after Scribble
Stuck in my thoughts
My words are stuck
I just can write them down
Cramps in my hands
Callus on my finger
Words ran away
Left my thoughts to linger
I want to write a beautiful goodbye
But all i have to say is
I miss you
And why


-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyright 2017

Write after write
Scribble after Scribble
Stuck in my thoughts
My words are stuck
I just can write them down
Cramps in my hands
Callus on my finger
Words ran away
Left my thoughts to linger
I want to write a beautiful goodbye
But all i have to say is
I miss you
And why


-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyright 2017

Today I kept myself busy
Today I took care of things
Because I didn't want to ponder on what tomorrow brings
My mind is and ocean
My skin is the beach
Thoughts caught in a maze
In a maze with no end
Dreaming of sweet release
Cowardly...
Perhaps
Put on my shoes
And forget about you
I mean take a walk on my road
And maybe then you will know
The thought of no pain
I just want to ride the waves
I  mean I want to give them my pain
So it can depliciate
Intertwined with the waves forever
To not feel
That's the real deal

-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyright 2017

There is glitter in the air this morning.
I swear I saw fairy dust today.
Little speckles of sunshine and moonlight  intertwined.
They linger there with beauty so fine.
They linger like the skylines.


-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

It still lingers in my mind.
A day i will always remember...forget it? How about I forget trying....
It was a choice I made. And now i know the debt shall never be paid.
It has been ten plus years...yet this day still sends tears.
I tried to leave you between hither and yon.
But even if i did thou shall live on.
You are whats inside me...will you allow me to go on?
Or will you still linger. Who decides? Is it you or I?
Because if you will allow it. Then i swear i will try.
Im sorry that i left you in an unknown crowd.
For that i am never proud.
I haven't uttered you in years. Because you bring sullen tears.
I am sorry.
I am sorry.
Will this day forgive me?
Maybe i should still flee....
That day i didn't know what I did...I was still a kid.
I was a flower just blossoming.
Will this day forgive me? Will the day go away?
I'm sorry I can't fix it....
Not sure i would even if i knew i could.
Gloomy day you still linger in my mind.
Deeper darkness I will never find.
I am sorry.....i know its been a long time.



-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

Yea, I seen it...caught u red handed with a ***** you claim not to know.
Give up already on the deception...wrap up your show.
It's not this..It's not that. All sounds the same to me so **** whatever you tryin' to say.
Stomping arround town, pounding the ground with my heart on the bottom of your shoe.
Your fabrication is staring at me right in the face, but im lucky enough to see right through.
Once epic memories are now sullen.
I gotta go pick up my pieces before they start flyin.
As i look in your blank eyes you fill my mind with those beautiful lies.
Captivating! Stop captivating me.
Extraordinarily thoughtless you are
Remarkably narrow you will forever be.
But here's the thing you dont get to do it twice.
I won't let you get me. So don't bother to come back arround. Don't come back for me.
You will never get me back. Bet your bottom dollar it's a fact.
It took ages to find the pieces of my heart you left scattered and stuck to the ground.
On the way back I left an ocean of tears filled with the deep dephs of my fears
How about you go for swim. **** it I'll be honest...I sure hope you drown.





-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

Heart beating fast, my plams are sweaty.
Petrified. But totally excited.
Thoughts fill my brain like water fills the levy.
I feel like im going to burst...like i lost my lid.
Hmmm... do you ponder the question why?
I love this feeling its exhilarating.
Its not that im shy.
Its more deeper than that..more graduated.
Let me just get the nerve.
Ill just say it...Hello..hi
I enjoy your enegry as i watch and observe.
Beautiful nerd
Hello.
Hi


-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

It was a dark night
When she told a story of her fight
She spoke the coldest words I've ever known
Her feet blistered from the road
Knuckles torn apart from using all her might
Shreds hung from her clothes
As her icy story was told
She drove me up and down the hills
She showed me where she defeated it
And smiled as she said now leave your fear
As I looked back at her I realized I was talking to the mirror



-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

I drank of you.
And savored every sip.
I want all of you.
So I can savor every bite.
When you speak.
I stop the world..
So I can listen.
And savor every sound.
I feel the vibration.
I've waited way too long for you.
I want it all.
Give me all of you.
Just the way that it is..
Please no substitutes.


-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

No. I have no terror I will avenge you.
You say karma will but I'm not waitin' on it. Besides I'm not afriad to.

You were my eyes when the fog I couldn't see through.
Tell me now. And tell me the the whole truth. Did he harm you?

No. I've never been here before. But you I will do it for. If I don't stop him he will try and do it more.

Ohhhh. Ohhhhh. Ohhhhh.
Noooo. Noooooo. Nooooo.
No. He won't do it no more.


My sweet friend. I promise he wont
do it again.


My pleasure was inside his pain. I took retaliation in your name.

I'm the champion. I'm your defender. I will be your watcher...your preserver.
It was easy. ***** threw his hands up. Tried to surrender. But that didn't work...was already over.

You said that he harmed you.
Ohhhh. Noooo. Noooooooooo.
He won't do it no more.




-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

Walked in the shadows.
Couldn't find the light.
Fell into an abyss.
Couldn't fight gravity.
Went through an erie tunnel.
Couldn't find the end.
I weeped. I cried. I sobbed.
Couldn't find my smile.
Got stuck in quick sand.
Kicked and screamed and I sank.
I was burried.
Thought I was gone.
Thought I was under.
But I was not.
I had just been planted.
I didn't have to crawl out.
I just grew.


-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

There was a road of broken glass leading to my paradise
With every step another cut that dripped
It twists and turns up into a mountain
On the way up there were goblins, dragons, rats and snakes
In the dark I'd use my lantern
Yesterday the goblins tried to consume me
After the snake told them where I wander
I was not unprepared
Which led to their despair
Onward I walked with bloddied feet until I had to climb
The rats scurried about*
Swaying across my feet
And that led to their defeat
My hardest battle was still to come
And I was not unprepared
So I walked proudly into the dragons lair
He waited there
And used every last breath
Until there wasn't a single one left

-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyright 2016

I am a dimpled sky of emotion.
I ponder for ages making decisions.
But when it is made it is chizzled in stone.
Being a libra and a poet combined.
Intertwined. Sometimes I am..
Others I am not fine.


-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

Poor little birdy.
I saw you lay helpless in the alley.
Broken wing? I'm not sure.
I wondered as i watched you and my heart hit the floor.
You couldn't move. You couldn't even try.
Oh wonderful your birdy friend is here to help!.... I thought to myself.
Then he got on top of you and started to peck out your eye.
Oh myyy.
Whats happening? I can't let this go on.
So i chased him and away he flew.
But the damage was already done.
Poor little one.
Should i end your pain i ask myself?
Today was the first time i heard a bird whimper.
You're no longer in pain. Fly high.
And if i see that other bird again his wings i will fry.
Poor little birdy.
Fly high.




-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

It's the lonely nights that pry..
It's the lonely nights that lurk..
In the corridors all around.
During these nights I have visions..
You and I soaring
You and I writing...
Two masterpieces combined
Into a story that has never been told
A story of two lonely hearts...
Connected at the mind




-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016