My phone buzzes and I jump
sometimes out of excitement,
sometimes out of fear,
sometimes I don't move at all
due to being sad or feeling down,
the buzz ends up ignored.

Idiotic girl,
ranting in the form of a sentence
in this forum full of nonsense
about how an old friend
felt her up despite knowing
she has sexaul trauma issues...
but that's just her post today.
Tomorrow there will be something
else that actually triggers me,
but she doesn't care about that possibility,
does she?

I don't care
I don't care
I don't care
I don't care
i don't care
i dont care
i dont car
i dont ca
i dont c
i dont...

Don't say goodnight, not yet.
Just stay with me
and say, "the night's not over yet."
continue to tell me silly things
that you're reading.
I know I'm not saying much
but I won't admit I'm feeling sleepy.

I keep rolling over
expecting to see you there...
but the screen stays black
and you're back in your own chair.