Hilla254

Hilla254 Oct 2018

i don't know about my past lives,
but am really glad of this one,
i hold no grudge against you,
i wish you best of everything.

i don't know about you,
don't know what you believe in,
don't know what you think of you,
don't know what comes to your mind,
every time you hear my name.

i don't know the struggle,
you keep up with,
don't know the shrapnel's,
you have to dodge every moment,
aftermath of a broken heart,
the feigned smile to keep it moving,
hell brewing on the after thought's,
deep buried haunting memories,
you don't know when they be going off,
daydreaming your worst nightmares,
sleep doesn't comfort anymore.

Live a life, Live a lie, Leave

#life #you #believe

Hilla254 Oct 2018

Happy Bithday To Me

20 year's ago,
On this day,
Pain brought happiness,
To my mom,
Fate chose me to share a lifetime with you,
It's been a long two decade's,
But very short,
When i really think about it,
It's been a journey,
I would say,
Every moment,
Every friend,
Means a own world to me,
Every experience,
Taking part,
In shaping what i've become,
It's never late,
Happy birthday to me.

I hope it will be a wonderful year

#happy #bithday #urbanpoet

Hilla254 Sep 2018

circle of life

two tokes of the plain jane,
i rest my deepest thoughts,
my mind wanders,
wondering about the circle of life,
a gradual growth, of knowledge too
circle of friends, love,
entitled to one soul,
one you can't escape from,
the past shape's the future,
running from it,can't do
it just keeps' up with the present,
everyone learns by his own book,
people you meet,
friends you gain,
come in different chapter's,
knowledge gained,
experience's, dreams,
shape what we become,
you can't copy mine,
we packaged different.

If i drown into it.. Let life pass by me.

#life #meditation

Hilla254 Jul 2018

Sad song

At first,
Everything is bliss,
Smitten by love,
Happiness in each moment,
Addicted to all of The perfection's,
It's all dream come true,
Sweet words,
Beautiful promises,
Goal's, dream of his dreams,
His and her's,
Us.

Soon,
Imperfections arise,
Words become more benign,
Empty kept promises,
Missed call's early in The morning,
Unread text's late in The night,
Nasty argument's,
Crazy fight's,
Suspicion's,
Where you been?,
Just a friend?.

The bliss goes up in flames,
Anger, resentment roams The hearts,
It doesn't feel The same anymore,
Distance grows you apart,
Less frequent thought's,
Very Little love,
To right what's,
Left.

A platinum album for The broken hearts....

#sad #heartbroken #story #twisted

Hilla254 Jul 2018

The two poems

Light and darkness,
Lies on our souls,
Pure actions,
Acclaimed by,
Purest of intentions,
Makes us whole,
ill biased actions,
Consumes The light,
Makes us wither,
Drown, succumb to The darkness.

You'll never be As beautiful,
As you are now,
We shall never re-live this moment,
Again,
But will be Forever Stored up in our minds,
As memories,
My life, your life,
A insignificant speck of dust,
In The vast universe.

Do what Makes you happy,
Don't invest in regrets,
Cherish every moment,
Savour every breath,
Every moment,
Can be The last,
Or The best,
For god's reside up,
Up in our head's.

Knowledge is worthless to those who Don't understand Or value it.

#sad #lost #purpose #deity

Hilla254 Jul 2018

A true story

When I Manage to make it silent,
Board the ship of sentiment,
And sail away from the sea of reality,
At the epitome of my imagination,
Lost to myself,
In a bizarre prison of my imagination,
I lay down wasted,
Weak and feeble looking,
A feeling of resentment and anger,
Lay's on my soul,
Am me, but all is lost,

You're there,
At the corner of the dungeon,
Of course,
You never leave my mind,
Wish I'd stop thinking of you,
Stop caring and grow up,
Memories from sentient me,
Start's crawling in,
I thought playing fair, would make it fair,
Thought as long as I was a trustworthy person, I could trust others,
Thought they would love me, if I loved them,
Thought it would change them,
Thought it couldn't change me,
Guess i was wrong.

If i could conquer my mind... Rule it by the needs of the flesh... I wouldn't be i, would I??

#truth #depressed #sad #lies #sarcasm

Hilla254 Jul 2018

Inked thoughts

When the flow of words,
Overrun my thoughts,
Am forced to pick a pen,
Ink down the word's in a paper,
In a order,
In order to make sense.

I just write,
I don't know what else to do,
Write to fill the void in my heart,
Write to silence inconsiderate Doubt's,
Loud thought's, drowned thought's,
Dreaded nought's,

Why does silence manifest so loudly,
Why is emptiness so heavy,
Why does emotion's always overcome logic,
Why does reality not seem so real,
Is love a feeling or emotion,
A blurry line separates the two.

#happy #crazy #dillema

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