i guess i just got used to having sugar
so much so that even just drinking water
tasted bitter

When I was a child,
I was taught poetry wasn't mild,
It was deep as the sea,
And it seemed truly unachievable for me.
I was taught poetry had to rhyme,
Every single line, every single time.
So poetry seemed out of my reach,
Like chasing a seagull down a beach,
Jumping ever so slightly away,
Or soaring into the sunny day.

So I never thrived for what I thought would,
No, Could
Never be.

I guess now I'm fixing the mistakes of past me.

Beautiful boy
Fairytale frog
Stupid girl
Like a loyal dog

A magic gem
that lost it's shine
It ceased to sparkle
When you weren't mine

A secret place
Too long lost
Heart of gold
Bitten by frost

A special love
that's disappeared
Now there's just me,
And hate, and fear

The star that shot
Left me here alone
With nothing else to do
But make my way home

I see him there
But he doesn’t talk
He finds me staring
And turns around to walk

Is this what we’ve been reduced to?
Ignorant bliss - solely for you

Shackled to our bonds
And surrounded by brambles
Like sand castles by the sea
Strong foundations crumble

My hand shakes, my pen breaks
But I am not suppressed
Tearing grass and filling pages
With a force I never knew I possessed

Feeling unwanted, ignored and lost
I sink down with the approaching dusk
Losing myself in the thick mist
My identity becomes a mask

My lips start to quiver
Because you’re right there
But you’re looking right through me
I realize, with a shiver

Nothing remains, all is lost
My efforts are in vain
Pain and twangs of sadness are all I have
When you are washed away in the rain