Will i ever be loved?
Will i ever be anyone's first?
Will i ever be noticed?
they tell me it's in my head
But they don't see what i see
I'm always a last choice
Am i wanted?
Am i needed?
Am i special?
They say god loves me
They say he chose me
Yet all i hear is deafening silence
I scrape and claw
For attention
I end up ******
And scarred
Others merely exist
People go to them
Giving affection
Without being begged
Here i am
Where i always knew
Sitting alone
With a hangover overblown
I've never been noticed
Even if i act out
I could scream and shout
No-one will look
How can i live
How can i be ok
How can i breathe
How do i accept lonliness
Maybe one day
I'll write a song
Of love and warmt
And not wavering sadness
And desperation
Maybe..
Some...
Day
Im livinf on my own nkw...the guy i like i realize...doesn't...like me...as usual. It's ok. Theres something about me everyone denies it but there is that cuases people to forget me