I'm falling on my own

Hoping time will stop



I'm falling alone

Hoping the pain in my chest will just stop

And the gun you hold tight might just drop



I'm falling on my seat

Still gasping for air

Hoping it end fast

And somebody just pass by me

To stop and actually care



I'm falling behind

Realizing it is the end

Jumping in reality

Has really tie me to a trend

Nobody listen

Nobody trying

Nothing glisten

At least I'm trying



I'm falling deep,

Deep inside the light

Hopefully when it ends

There will be a ride

Hopefully it won't bite

Just like how it felt on my heart

When she left me that night

Just to know she doze away

To satisfy her own way

Gasping for the last day

Ends me in a sway



I'm falling away in my vision

Closing my eyes

Hoping it fade like my last text

Someday my name will be heard

Truly, X

Been running away for most of my life,
Always turning back to feeling the blade of the knife.
Getting older is making me grow colder.
No one to turn to but my own lonely shoulder.
But somehow none of it seems that bad.
Maybe it is and that's why nothing ever lasts.
I don't know where i'm going but i hope i get there soon.
Maybe if i'm lucky i'll find a hand to hold onto.
But i can never hold onto the same shoes.
And maybe that's why i'm always searching for clues.
But i'm finding that i'm running out of hope to continue.
And lately i've been mostly numb.
To death will i succumb?
I always feel like it follows me around.
Maybe that's why i feel safer in a crowd.
But what is life if you have no real connections?
I guess i need to figure out a way to change the direction.
Maybe it's all about the perception.
But until i find a way to feel better about my disarranged life.
I'll try my best to have hope and get rid of this strife.

I want to keep my eyes on you

You know I love you,
Right?

i am learning to love myself
like he never could
and darling
i can feel flowers
growing from my scars
reaching for the sunshine
of my new found smile

s.s