Malia

Malia Oct 2023

buried

In the past
People used my past to control me
But I’m past that so I smack back
What they told me.
Try to hold me back
But you can’t tack a label
On a fable, I’m a legend
Even if you say I’m unstable.
If in competition, they done lost to me
Take a shot at me, you intelligence apostasy.

Mockingly, they call me an oddity
Probably a product of my comedy
Step back, laugh, then step on me,
See, free entertainment for the public glee!
“Gee, why the negativity?” they say to me
But I am not listening, glistening
In my eyes, but it ain’t tears
Fears, I forgot ‘em, buried ‘em last year.

Originally a rap, but poetic enough to put on here

#rap #oddity #resilience #resistance

Malia Oct 2023

Gold

I’d tear myself apart
Just to figure out what’s inside
Am I
Out of my mind?

Can I
Take it back
Cover my cracks
And be anew?
Can I
Rewrite my song
And just belong
To who I wish to be?

If I changed all my choices
Back from when I used to be young
Who would I become?

I’m not sure I want to be who
I am, right now.
If I fall, should I stay down?

Fall, then fill it with gold
I say, fall, then fill it with gold
I say, fall, then fill it with gold
Not cracks, just beautiful.

Yes, I
Can take it back
Forgive my cracks
And be anew.
Oh, I’ll
Rewrite my song
And just belong
To who I wish to be.

To who I will soon be.

Originally a song but I omitted the repeated choruses and some parts of the verses

#cracks #gold #rewrite #growth

Malia Oct 2023

nowhere to go

I don’t wanna go home
But I can’t stay here.

I know it’s after hours
But I’ve stared in the mirror
For hours
And I can’t do it anymore.

I don’t wanna go home
But I can’t stay here.

The problems fade away
When you face away from them
For a little while.

I don’t wanna go home
But I can’t stay here.

When there is nowhere to go,
Nowhere to hide,
You will find
That your problems find you.

Song version:

I don’t wanna go home
But I can’t stay here.
It’s getting late
But I hate the tears.

I don’t wanna go home
But I can’t stay here.
I know that it’s trouble
To not face your fears.

But I can’t.

Not today.

When the problems stack up,
I just put them away.

I don’t wanna go home
But I can’t stay here.
It’s getting late
But I hate the tears.

I don’t wanna go home
But I can’t stay here.
I know that it’s trouble
To not face your fears.

Ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah

I don’t wanna go home,
But I can’t stay here.
When the day grows short
The night always appears.

I don’t wanna go home,
But I can’t stay here.
I’ve walked the long road
And the end isn’t near.

#home #problems #avoidance

Malia Sep 2023

𝑔𝑜𝑜𝒹𝒷𝓎𝑒

When the floating moment passes
Everything crashes down.
A second, a millisecond, a microsecond
It’s short and long and short once more.

Nobody expects the end.
But we know it is coming
Because it always does.

The wind whispers to me:

𝑔𝑜𝑜𝒹𝒷𝓎𝑒

I’ve been really busy with school, so I haven’t posted in forever lol

Also, a friend of mine is like weirdly against italics, t h i s, and bold…what’s your opinion on that?

I know I totally overuse emphasis XD

#goodbye #wind #end

Malia Aug 2023

clear your heart * cross your mind

clear your heart
and follow your mind
turn impossibilities
into things you can feel inside
clear your heart
and meet my eyes
even when your wings get heavy
you will find a way to fly

originally a song

#song #flying #impossibilities #crossyourheart #clearyourmind

Malia Aug 2023

The Bus

Terribly
Terribly hot
“…No way…”
“…today was really…”
“..every day…”
“…she’s been acting so…”
The conversations
Blend and babble
Around me like
A brook and the bird-calls
In the mountain green
The leather seat
Sticks to my skin like glue
I bobble and bounce and I
ACK! Gosh **** turns!

on the school bus rn

#schoolbus #bus #observations