I look in the mirror and what do I see

I see two totally different images of me

I see the loving kind person I used to be

I also see the angry sad and cruel person hurt and pain has made me

It breaks my heart in two
Knowing the pain I have caused you

The kind me longs to be wrapped in your arms once more

The cruel me wants to settle a vindictive score

My heart and soul feel as if they are in a war

I'm fighting this down to my core

I want to put the wrong me finally  to rest

The loving kind me is the best!

Finally my broken heart is on the mend
I must stand tall and not bend
I still miss you voice your touch
I never knew love would hurt this much
I look up at the stars in the sky
I remember the light in your eyes
I look upon the moon up high
I miss you less the more time goes by
I wish you knew how much I still care
I even miss you patting my hair
But alas it wasn't meant to be
I'll say bye to you and you to me
Tears still come over me when I hear your name
I sorry I hurt you with this awful game.
Goodby my love I must move on
For our time is finished and gone

Invisible Scars are just a token,
the young girls' heart has been broken
Tears burn her eyes like a fire
Someone to care about her is her utmost desire
The invisible scars are just a token
Of lines crossed and boundaries broken
the young girl still has a sliver of hope
She is figuring out life and how to cope
The invisible scars are just a token
But the young girls' spirit has never been broken
Happiness and Joy have awoken
Invisible scars are no longer a token because she was never broken

Running  through my brain
Emotions filled with anger sadness and pain
Walking to the edge and looking down
I know I could end it all by hitting the ground
Trying hard to find a reason to live some more
I search my hardest right down to my core
I recall memories of my life
Some are happy others filled with strife
Memories come flowing  through my brain
Tears run down like a torrential rain
I think of my daughter and son
Memories filled with laughter and fun
Being grandma has brought lots of joy
1 granddaughter 4 grandboys
I step back from the very edge
Nope today  isn't the day I step off the ledge
I'll leave these words as I depart
May love joy and happiness fill your heart