I know you like me
But I thought you should know
I'm not a man
Just a shadow
Shadow of a man

Before you I stand
***** like a man
Leather and spikes
A hard *** who rides bikes
But I'm just a
Shadow of man

I might look whole and real
But behind eyes of blue steel
I'm just ethereal
A ghost who can't feel
Forever ******
To be a shadow of a man

We can talk about things
Work and music and who sings
That song
You know the one
But I'm not
The one you seek
Just to **** weak
I cannot show you how I feel
Because I'm not really real
I'm doing all I can
But I'm just a shadow of a man

Maybe someday I’ll be real
Let myself feel
Love
And the things I deny
Like me
And a You
I’m an apparition it seems
In both our dreams
I’m a homeless man
Who cannot beg for change
I’m really quite deranged
Just a shadow of a man

She created a flame
Burning in my heart like a bonfire
All consuming love
Lit up the sky
A beacon for all to see
Our words were the fuel
That stoked our passion
The heat burned with intensity
Electric digital love
Then one spark went astray
In an instant the flame raged
In three days it burnt paradise to the ground
Nothing I could do to stop it
Would not let myself become ashes too
Retaining my dignity
I rose above the burning wreckage
Of our love
Reborn like a phoenix
Heart broken but stronger
Because with her it grew two fold
And I’m NOT giving that up
Not giving up hope
To find a flame that burns true

Tell me lies.
Such little white lies.
To you,
I may be,
Just another,
One-of-the-boys.
But you should know.
I'm old enough,
To get wise.

Tellin' me lies.
Tellin' me little white lies.
Tell me,
What I see,
In your eyes.

The heart I thought,
Was on fire.
Must've been,
Your own burning desire.

Tellin' me lies.
When you're tellin' me,
Little white lies.
I can hear it,
In your voice,
When you give those,
False alibi's.

I wish I never knew,
You.
And the things,
That you do.

Tellin' me lies.
Tellin' me ***** white lies.
And now,
By your own choice.
You must wear,
Your own disguise.

I wonder how it seems,
For you,
To live,
In your world of,
Never ending Halloweens.

Tellin' me lies.
You're tellin' me lies.
I wonder how you feel.
When all around you,
Love dies.

Hungry eyes,
An' looks that ****.
How hard you try,
To get your fill.

Tellin' me lies.
Tellin' me more,
Little white lies.
But it's never,
The way you planned it.
Sometimes,
There are no good,
Good Byes.

Love that is honest an' real,
Is found by so very few.
But how easy it is,
For you to steal,
Love from a fool.

Tellin' me so many lies.
Ain't nothin' new.
Ain't no big surprise.
Only one thing to do.
Say good-bye.
No more lies.

Mr. Sly.
Always catchin',
The ladies eye.
Always hatchin',
Another chick.
You don't even have to try.
You're to slick,
Mr. Sly.

Mr. Sly.
You're so sweet.
But not too shy,
To the women you meet.
You're so nice,
An' too cool.
Sometimes cold like ice.
'Cause you ain't nobody's fool.
Mr. Sly.

Mr. Sly.
You howdy an' Mam 'em.
Take them so high.
Just to slam-bam them.
An' then say good-bye.
You don't walk,
You fly.
Listen to you talk,
Mr. Sly.

Didn’t want to talk about it
Smiling through the tears
Didn’t want to think about it
Smiling through the tears
Didn’t want it to show
Didn’t want anyone to know
It’s been going on for years
I’ve just been smiling through the tears

It took a while to catch on
How you thought it was strange
How you treated me wrong
When I asked you to change

My wants didn’t matter
Neither did my desires
My heart it was shattered
As you snuffed out my fires

So I plastered a smile on my face
Tried so hard to keep it all in place
Hid the truth from the human race
Covered it up with laughter and grace

Didn’t want to talk about it
Smiling through the tears
Didn’t want to think about it
Smiling through the tears
Didn’t want it to show
Didn’t want anyone to know
It’s been going on for years
I’ve just been smiling through the tears

I tried so hard to make it work
Gave in too much to get along
All you did was make me hurt
Making me the one who's wrong

Then there came the day
Thought once again you’d get your way
And in that moment it all fell away
And you learned I wasn’t going to stay

Let me talk about it
Smiling through the tears
I thought a lot about it
Smiling through the tears
Now I can’t wait for it to show
Want everyone to know
I’ve been waiting for this for years
And now I’m smiling through the tears

i like angry poetry
the kind that churns
in your gut,
with razors for teeth
and gums bleeding.
i like the violent sound
of verbs clashing
on a decaying page,
like the shot of a gun
on a quiet day.
i like the poetry that stays,
that lies in waiting
like a dog in a cage,
words that creep like
voided birds into the
wired tress of my brain,
that pay their rent
like drunken travelers
and trash the place.
i like angry poetry
the kind that sears it's
screams to my lips,
which spirit echoes and
moans for eager,
****** eyes.
words that hit like *****,
giving their reader
a killer hangover.
i like angry poetry,
the kind that leave you
with a smoky exit.

unfinished

If you understand me
You’ll understand
I want more
You can’t just walk in
And out of the door
To my heart
I’m not something
Some temporary fling
For you to tear apart
I’m not something to
Discard
Like the peel
Of an orange
While my heart is consumed
And then spat out by you

My heart is not
A revolving door
For you to come into
And out of
No more
Shoplifting
My emotions

You're stealing my mind
Stealing my time
Stealing my dignity
I won't let you steal my heart anymore
Here's your eviction notice

Good bye