I woke up again
Alone in my bed
I'm still here
Ringing in my head
I run to the bathroom
Heave into the bowl
I'm sure I've lost my mind and my soul
Not again! My body screams
Maybe, just maybe, this is a dream?
I stumble back to bed
One thought in my head
The bottle is empty, the pills are gone
I shouldn't be here
Something went wrong
I can't sleep, and I can't stay awake
My body is dieing, my hands start to shake
I have to try harder
Or find another way
I don't want to be alive
Not one more day

I drift into consciousness
My eyes glued shut
I can't feel my body
Or utter a word
Metal and dirt
Is the only grinding sound
I wonder, is there anyone around?
Help me someone, please hear my plea
What is about to happen to me...
I lie there helpless
No memory of the hours before
I only can hear a faint bang on my door
I hear footsteps coming closer
Is it help, I fear not
My eyes start to open
Where is a cop?!
I see just the image of a large human above
I want to fly away, turn into a dove
Just get it over with,
I wanted to say
I had no idea what would be coming my way
My body was dragged, over to the grave
Dumped into the hole, could I be saved?
I hear the sound again, of metal and dirt
My body was now covered, will this hurt?
Just blackness, no light
The dirt piled heavy on me
The air is cut off
I can no longer breath
My final thought before I floated away...
*Why me, why today?

laugh
whisper
caress
taste
take
ache
burn

Sworn to protect,
Training till I break.

Fighting till I die,
So goes the life of a hero.

I die for those,
Who deserve life.
Over Pain.

I will fight,
Until I am sent home.
To Heaven.

Precious gem,
Gleaming so gallantly.
Streaming light into streets.

Luminescent gem,
Containing Dragon souls.
Shining on her neck,
Breathing fire down on the world.

Precious gem,
Agonize thy souls.
Never to be free again.

In this human world.

Words swirl through parting crimson.
Each syllable reflects on
the warm surface as it passes.
Some are almost drawn back
by the delicate wisp of breath.
Others are bitten off
stalled by a thought,
a look...
that look!
A tooth gripping soft red.
Released, the cherry
lips fall back in place.

Another butterfly flees my chest.