I see you in the light
I really see your feet
on the green and your
face filled with a blue
and sunshine covered
your home in the
beautiful sunny day...

I brought her to the hospital
And I know she is in pain
She says she’ll die today
But I know she’d sustain.

As painful it may be
As fearsome it may seem
My legs are shaking deep inside
I can hear her Scream.

You’d say I can’t feel the pain
She says its life threatening
I believe she’ll do it well
This moment of awakening.

The Doctor consoles her gently
The nurses prepare the room
My heart beats fast, yet sinks a bit
My baby is about to bloom.

I watch the process in silence
My heart is aching slow
The Doctor asks her to push
Our Child will make Her Glow.

Its a Girl and She’s beautiful
I heard the Doctor say
Everyone knows I cried
Saying Happy Mothers’ Day!!


Prashant Shaurya ©

All Rights Reserved
06/05/2021

P.S: I wrote this in the labor room while watching my wife give birth to our Daughter. It took me about 5 to 7 minutes to write till the second last stanza. I wrote the last stanza after seeing my newborn baby. My Daughter is my Universe!!

I gave all my love
To my friends
In return
Because I just love my friends
And also they are very special to me
Also my friends thanks me for
Giving them love also
Also my friends have lots of
Respect for me
They respect my race and my religion
And also they accept me the way I am
My friends know that I can’t never be perfect
Because I am just a human being
That makes lots of mistakes
But i move on
And I don’t try to fix my mistakes

you turn to me but i'm not there
i'm drowning
i told you but you couldn't listen
the thoughts won't make sense
none are clear
they're surrounding
encompassing and unnerving
if i take one last breath
would you notice the body
folded neatly
lying under the baggage
you placed on my back
i can no longer support myself
but you won't take the load
stuck inside your head
and i'm stuck with you
if i stop speaking
i'll stop breathing
so i'll carry on until my
fingers are shaking too much
from lack of oxygen
or sometimes too much
i can hear my breathing
speeding up faster
ready to take off and
fly away with what's left of
my soul and spirit
that you didn't crush
still going as i recognise
the dizzy daze i'm falling into
waiting to collapse in
on myself for maybe
the last time
for a while at least
we both know it won't happen
because of you
i couldn't however much you
argue and scream and shout
or maybe it's because of her
calming my mind
ok i have to stop now
i told you it would get too much
once again i say
i'm sorry
remember me
or the old me
if you can
it wasn't your fault

I know I got you love
My father
Every single day
And I could never
Live my life without you
Love
And father you make me
Feel special every single day
Because you made me special
Also I never had anything to complain
To you my father about my life
Because you gave me a beautiful
Life to live here on earth
And I want to thank  you
For every thing you done to me
You work together with me
Solving my anger issue
That I could not solve it on
My own
Also father every day when
I wake up
I wake up feeling tired
Without any energy
Father I sleep very bad lately
I keep waking up at 2 in the morning
And I never get a full hour of sleep
I must say that is terrible

Looking back I guess life seemed better than it was.
But it will never be worth the torment.
I don't know where to find myself.
But I guess I'll always dwell.
I'm still just trapped in this shell.
In my personal layer of hell.
Everything that fills my days is making me sick.
So I guess until I figure it out I'll just be in remiss.

Don't tell me, you're a Christian?
And you're a bigot.
Because you miss the point and the purpose.

Don't even say, you're a good Christians.
And you a hypocrite.
Because eventually you're being exposed to not knowing the Lord at all.

Christians are a tricky road to follow.
The pressure is high to conform to.
Because God commands good servants and bigots and fools aren't the two.