sad sad empty
broken
cracked
decaying
your heart
your fingers claw
for a
morsel
of my flesh.

i ran away away
from the big bad wolf
but you huff
and you huff
and puff
...
and
i am still running away

You play with my head
and you **** with my feelings
but my presence you dread
and my face sends you reeling

I'm not your fool
I'm not your tool
I'm not some *****
that you can just lead on

Just leave me alone
take every last stone
and every last bone
I won't be your drone!

i just have to believe what you say, stranger
because your words are all i've got

i just have to believe your name
though there were no results in facebook or google

i'm just believing that you like me
and that you really would analyse my handwriting
and that you live in the place you're living

but i will never know
if you'll come online
again

So empty that it's too hard to get out of this bed.. So hurt that it feels like I've been beat.. I can only fake this smile to a point. Sometimes it's just a bad day, but lately it's been a bad life.. I'm surrounded by people who don't understand me enough. I feel the need to sink into the earth.. Without a care everyone will go about their lives.. I've lost everyone around me.. Life's been more of a question.. Because I don't know where I stand, I go day by day wondering why I'm still alive .. My eyes not filled with tears but dry from the ride.. Life throwing knifes at me..but I've become to enjoy the pain... My only friend seems to be pain.. One reason.. It's always there.. I can't say I sit here anymore and cry. For nobody can bring my to shed a tear at this point in time.. I'm hurt but in an angry way.. I feel like I might not know myself anymore.. My minds a blur but I've always wondered..... Where's my cure...

to the first boy
who broke my first heart
don't worry
i found another one.

to the first bestfriend
who broke my second heart
don't worry
i bought another one.

to my mother
who broke my third heart
don't worry
i didn't bother with making another.

to my future
which i am sure will be just like the past
(we repeat ourselves
into eternity
our collective unconscious
hellbent on being heroes) -
don't worry.
there is nothing to break.
you will have no guilt
and i will have no pain.

last time I saw you
you wanted me dead
but look who's laughing now
because look who's still handcuffed to my bed

but even now, he's got control over me
and it's not hard to see
because whenever I look into his eyes
I softly crumble into the breeze

and I think he's perfect
the way his hands fit around my hips
and every time i'm blown away
by the way he kisses my red lips

so if the drugs make my sweet heart stop
and I breathe my last breath into your arms
i'll haunt you like ghost
to let you know that i'm not gone

you know i'm better than any Cinderella
stomping on my finished cigarette
so come down from your castle
and start making me sweat