Every book I open
Every story I read
Another adventure I start
Another Life I begin

I live with them
And laugh
And run
And cry with them

I just don't belong
Not in the real world
But however unlikely
In literacy I find a place

In the end
The pages ripped my heart
They pull me apart
They ruined my life
And they changed who I am

Yet without them
My life is nothing
I am incomplete

The author who holds the knife
Dangles it over my head
With each character's death
A new tear in my soul

A new life in literacy
A gift not all can receive
Without literacy  
I would have no life at all

Such is the curse of the reader

Do not feel sorry from them
Feel sorry for those those who do not read
For those who live but one life
A life a ignorace at that

What is beauty?
To some it is flowers
or
Sleeping puppies
or
A babies laugh
or even
the perfectly warped present
To me it is the crackling fire in the winter
The sound of pen on paper
My big dog barking at passing pedestrians
The sight of my little brother and sister's face
When they see Santa has been
When the word beauty means something different to everyone
*I mean look at the beast but beauty loved him

We live in a Society were everyone tries to be the same
You are ether Cool or Lame
You are Good or Bad
You are Black or White
Well not me!
I'll be Purple
And you can be Red
He can be Green
She can be Blue
Why is it only Black and White?
Why can't we all be Our-self ?
Why can"t we all be Different?

What makes a family?
Is it a mom and dad?
What if you only have one?
What if you have none?
My friend
Your friends
Could they count?
I say they do when your close
So tell me
What makes a family?

Years away
A pen put down

A dream lost
A friend forgotten

Now I find them
And lift them up

Life ongoing
World spirling

Love returning
Like rewriting

Hello old friend
And welcome home

I didn't find Narnia in my closet
I didn't get my letter to Hogwarts
I didn't get to train as a Jedi
This is my reality
It may not be like yours
That doesn't mean your better then me
You don't know my story
You don't know what I've been though
You only know what I tell you
And what I show
Don't tell me I'm not worth your time
I'm nothing special
Or that I'm a wanna-be you
All you are is a Bully
I didn't chose this life
I am me
I don't want one of you
So I say...
Dear Victims,
Listen to what Ron Weasley said to Neville Longbottom
You're worth a hundred of him
And, Dear Bullies,
Get over yourself

This is my plead
My plead of insanity
You can't comprehend the thought that flow though my mind
They tell my to fight when I know I will lose
They tell me to laugh when I know I should cry
They tell me to awaken when I know I should sleep
I wage war when they tells me I will fall
The small people in my head tell me these things
So this is my insanity plead
Don't let these men in the white coats take me away
Keep them out
This is my plead
My insanity has nothing on these odd men

I want to tell you
To tell you the truth
To tell you just three little word
But it so hard
I want to say it
But
I don't know if you'd say it back?
Here I go
                                                              ­                **I love you

Today I learned a lesson
Not a fun one I suppose
I stood in front of my hero
As he told me two things
According to him
I have made a stupid choice
As well as hearing that
I heard another thing
He insulted what I believe in
I once waited a year for him to come home
Now I wait to hear what I hope for most
To hear him say he is proud of me
Someone hearing their hero
Insult them and call them stupid
**Is a pain I would not wish to my worst enemy

There's a song I love to listen to
It's on replay in my head
The lyrics say what I wish I could
There's only one problem with the song
It only exists in my head
I wish I could write it down
Only if i did...
I can't perform anyway

Most people don't get it
Why they leave
But I do
And I love them for it
They leave home
Two years male
Eighteen months female
But they leave the life behind
So that others can still be with their family
For eternity

She knows I'm not crazy
I'm just not normal

She knows I'm not random
I only think quicker than others

She knows I'm not dumb
I'm really quite smart

She knows all my secrets
Some I won't even admit

She knows I'm a nerd
But helps me hid it

My best friend
I can never let her go
*She knows way too much

I dream when I'm asleep
I dream when I'm awake
I dream about the future
I dream my hero
And how far away he seems
I dream of a escape from this ordinary life

It's been one week
One no good week

So many thing went wrong
Nothing went my way

My heart was broke
Yet he still lives there

My brother is being sent away again
Last time it was a year over seas

All I can say is
Welcome to **Life

Tap Tap Tap
As each droplet falls

Tap Tap Tap
As the storm moves closer

Tap Tap Tap
A flash a light in the distance

Tap Tap Tap
The sky grows dark

Tap Tap Tap
Moments of brightness

Tap Tap Tap
The thunder follows each

Tap Tap Tap

I'm okay                                                     I'm hurt
I'm Fine                                                       I'm going to cry
Shut up                                                        I want to hear you voice
Leave me alone                                           I need you
                            **Please don't ever leave me
                                  I'll always run to you

What are you running from?
What are you running to?
Is it the past?
Maybe the future?
The tears?
The memories?
Why do you run?

I love you because you say so many things
You say if your smart your a nerd
If your on the debate team your a geek
You only think about the bigger things
Not the people
You say that a man can not marry man
And women can not marry women
You say a woman can not do everything a man can
Oh Society.....                
                                    ­          
**I Hate You

Someday I try and I try
Again and again
Just to make things right
But I always seem to fall
Flat on my face
It's hard to get back up
Every time I fail
They get closer
The nightmares
If dreams come true
Aren't nightmares dreams too
I try to run
But I have nowhere to go
I feel so alone
That feeling never goes away
It doesn't matter how hard I try
I can never seem to get it right
I'm always in the wrong
My hope moving farther away
My nightmare closing in
Judgement for who they all think I am
Not who I really am
If only they could see past all the labels
I didn't chose this life
It's a punishment for not being good enough
I can't go to heaven
I didn't do enough right
I can't go to hell
I didn't do enough wrong
So here I am
Trapped right in the middle
With no way out

Listen closely
What do you hear?
Go to a room with complete silence
Just for a short time
Tell me
What do you hear?

I hear the beat
The beat of the drums
Constantly beating
Am I crazy?
What do you hear?

He was burning to ask the question
We sat down and talked
A nice dinner, but he was sweating the whole time.
Dessert came and so did a ring.
Right there in the cold desert
Cold like my answer would be.
Down on one knee
He spoke four words
With so many people around.
Did he really love me?
I didn't want to be another trophy
Trapped
"No"

It moves so fast
Too fast in fact
You close you eye as a baby
Then wake up five
To get ready for preschool
At age six
In kindergarten you take a nap
When you teacher wakes you up your Fourteen
And in the middle of math class
Time moves oh so fast
It will never slow down
All it will do is speed up when your not ready
When I was little I only wanted to grow up
To be free
But now I wish I was a little kid again
Just a  little kid being sheltered from reality
I know I can never go back
I can only try to slow down

To be a princess you must:
never be impolite
never slouch
never turn your back
never show who you are
always do whats right
always follow a scheduled
always wake up early
always always always
Well i'm glad i'm not a princess