Various colors shined down on me,
Ever since you came into my life.

Feelings of affection, and desire,
I have never felt genuinely before.

With you here with me,
I can be things I never thought-
I could ever be.

Because of bad, old relationships,
I've been shut in.

Because of bad, old relationships,
I didn't allow anyone in.

Because of bad, old relationships,
I never showed the real me to anyone.

But then.. you came into my life,
and I could not look the other way,
No matter how hard I tried.

I promised myself not to get attached, again.

Yet, here I am here, so utterly attached and in love with you.

Being mistreated made me empty,
It made me afraid to put myself out there.

Being abused, emotionally,
Made me forget who I am-

I am truly, blessed.

To see myself so pleased and happy with my life now, is everything I ever wished for and more.

I am blessed with good family, good friends, and good love.

Looking back only one year ago, my life was extremely ******* me.

This post is a thank you, for everyone in my life, to everyone who always stood next to me and helped me. Thank you.

You never hold back
You give me so much love.

That I sometimes wonder..
Am I allowed to be this loved,
This happy?

He guided me to the right path,
Showed me how to put myself-
not second, but first.

He showed me true love,
Showered me with so much affection,
I never knew was possible.

It tears you apart deep inside,
Locks you away from so many beautiful things-
That you could attain.

Once you are in this state,
It is hard to come out of it.

You taught me love,
You taught me not to be afraid to get attached,
and in the end,
You taught me how to love myself.

Some people are from our own blood, and they don't even deserve anything.

Everytime I promsie myself not to give in to them, I do.

In this new year, here to me not doing that.