She wants me to want her,
But she won’t have me now,
She doesn’t know what she wants,
So she keeps me around,
I know that I want her,
But having her scares me too,
I think about what I’m doing,
And it makes me feel sick,
But I can’t stop myself,
From falling harder and harder,
For the girl who plays with my head,
Who says she wants someone else,
But when I leave her alone,
She needs to be reassured,
That I’m still there,
I try to resist,
But I’ll always be there.

I always waste time,
Thinking about what I could have said,
You never look back,
You said what you would have said,
I don’t know why I regret it so much,
The remorse in my eyes,
Says more about how I feel,
Than the words stumbling out of my mouth,
This nagging feeling of inconveniencing you,
Obscures the actions I make,
I feel so lost in the wake of this moment,
It’s as if I had been brought back into a dream,
Turned into the nightmare I felt before,
And I’m wondering if this time,
I’ll end up falling through the never ending floor,
Because I came back to you,
In a state of pure vulnerability,
And this time you truly rejected me.

I've been thinking about you,
In the ways that I used to,
I can't get you off my mind,
I feel like I'm losing mine,
I've been daydreaming,
About what could have been,
What would have been,
If I wasn't a fool,
I fell for you,
And pushed you away,
Why am I so cruel,
To have punished you,
For the way you made me feel,
I wish I could have,
Let myself reveal,
All of the things,
You truly made me feel.

Oh, how you always hide,
When I try to jump inside,
The green pool of lies,
Splashing beneath,
Your igniting eyes.