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Over-Complicated Mar 2019
It took a long time for me to believe in trust again because it had been broken so many times.
It took a long time to believe in love again after it had been maniacally ripped apart.
Despite that, someone made me believe,
And then, now, here I am broken all over again.
I found myself believing every word that plunked from those lips
And I fell for them .
When sentences string from mouths , I don’t believe any of the explanations now.
I don’t process the one-sided quickly spoken monologues anymore.

It hurts to look back on the past and see the slow shifts where I couldn’t before.
It’s even harder to look into the future and see where I won’t fit in,
But it looks like it’s time to change again.
Part two of a series of unfiltered emotions meant to be seen
One each day for each person
Over-Complicated Mar 2019
I broke all of my promises
And accepted, shamefully,
all of the nightmares hidden-
Over-Complicated Feb 2019
Like a child, I am eagerly waiting.
My knee shakes frantically in anticipation.
I sit excitedly in the water,
A smile plastered on my face,
Mouth watering.
Am I scared?
Of course?
Would you not be?
But despite my fear,
I look joyously down and the hard metal
A salty droplet rolls down my cheek.
I am scared,
But I am ready.
I take a deep breath,
I let go,
And I...
Over-Complicated Feb 2019
Is God real?
If He is, He must be torturing me.
He took the ones I loved and twisted them like locks.
They changed and morphed and blended together until I could no longer distinguish them from the blurs of the unfocused background.
He took them and set up a metal trap for me to walk into.
People I'm in love with love other people.
People are forgetting me, or worse, doubting me.
People I trusted with my whole heart hurt me in such a way that I can't even react to things in the way that I should.
He has bent and broken my home.
Screams echo into a small room that I cannot call my own.
It's been like this for too long.
I must have done something wrong to upset Him,
But I don't even know what I did.
No one trusts me or believes me.
I'm losing them and losing myself.
I've been left to defend for myself with doubt around every corner.
I've held out for so long,
I can't go on for much longer.
Over-Complicated Feb 2019
I feel that I can honestly say that you don't love me like you did
Because loving is different to you, now.
You're losing your mind, forgetting what we've gone through and remembering mistakes way too old to know when they really were.
I don't know if you know what talking is because you can't seem to do that with me.
                              Ever.
You don't trust me with anything.
It's insane how much you keep from me,
And what I'm starting to keep from you out of fear that you'll show the people that you love more.
I won't exert all my effort to get you to love me
Because I know it'll never happen,
But I'm putting in 65% and youre working a straight zero.
Over-Complicated Feb 2019
She giggles like a baby
And dances like an excited child,
Twirling amongst the wind and rain with no coordination.
Her smile is quiet and often,
I never really thought about how much I love teeth until I looked at how cute hers were,
Her canines sharp and ready to bite at my ear.
The waist on that girl is about the size of my neck,
Maybe smaller.
I wouldn't doubt it.
Pale milk in the moonlight is no whiter than her skin,
But it is not nearly as luminescent and ethereal.
Her freckled narrow nose shows how much she is in the sun.
She will run around, having kid's fun, until millennia go by.
Her ears poke out of her hair sometimes,
Showing themselves just to make me smile.
And her locks are thick, unlike her thighs.
Her hips are so wide and fluid,
But she does not worry of them.
Her only worry in the world is of her music.
Her multichrome eyes are canyons filled with amusement, joy and love,
And they are framed by long elegant eyelashes that tickle my own when she kisses me.
Her hands, ever so small but broken, rush around, messing with whatever there is to be played with.
And her tongue intrigues me as much as it enchants me. One flick of it, and I'm melted in her hands.
Her body is what I'd imagine heaven's angels to appear as,
Bright.
Playful.
Perfect.
Over-Complicated Feb 2019
I dress like a ****
And laugh extra hard to earn love,
But things have been hard
And I just need a friend.
Update: nothing's changed.
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