It's a sunny Wednesday morning and the summer air is quiet
You've been a person I'm always so close to when the opportunity is raised but as always the summer separates us
Over the hot and humid months we never really talk much and Im left to hate the fact that everything is a memory, I keep holding on to the fact that in the fall we can laugh again. Without you existing solely in my heart and in my head
I admire your smile and energetic hugs that last for hours when you can tell I'm upset and it's days like these when I realize I shouldn't take it for granted
I already miss you

There are weeds growing from my ankles, they stay calm and at rest
They tell me pretty secrets and keep all of my thoughts suppressed
The weeds are weak and fragile
For I feed them at night with each sob and each tear

There are flowers that start to grow
On my arms and on my legs
They stay idle with a passion and they sway in the wind
They laugh and they scream with joy when I smile or even blink
For I starve the flowers until they can't help but to shrink

I am clumsy and therefore careless
forgetting the hurt and feeble soul
I am sad and therefore hopeless
And its the flowers that pay the toll

So I'm sorry dear flowers for I never meant to cause harm
But these weeds are growing stronger and I've given into their charm

Please forgive me,
I know I've done wrong but I am here to repent
I am lost in the fields and I don't mean to misrepresent
For the flowers and the weeds sing pretty tunes
Calling my names and hoping that I can find you

I lie a lot more than I should and its killing me

I'm growing tired and heavy
You tell me everything wrong with me and exploit me for not trying hard enough but I'm wearing myself out trying to be good enough and it's all going to waste
And my tears are staining my pillow, a nice dark shade of red
But tell me that you care about me and I'll keep tracing your fingers and singing that stupid song in my head

I've been encapsulated with a difficult time and I've had my strength repeatedly put through rigorous test lately and I'm always left alone to suffocate on my insecurities and feel helpless at the knees of the Lord
I can't find peace in my skin or in my mind and my first thought was to sleep away my troubles before I realized the simplicity of bathing in the privilege given to me by God
I pray for a comfort found only in one person and I pray strictly for their repent as one day they'll be forced to face a struggle bigger than any of us
I pray for solitude in my life and in their happiness I so heavily rely on
I pray I can sacrifice myself in the eyes of the lord in exchange for them and their lack of faith and I cant remember when I started prioritizing their prayers over my own but the Lord is just as thankful in rewards as he is in appreciation