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Feb 2015 effaced

Goodbye.

Feb 2015 effaced

Miss E

Goodbye.

I remember you saying goodbye.
Hearing you say I was no longer what you wanted.
I remember how you use to hold me.
Until we felt nothing but each other.
I remember teasing you to make you laugh.
The comfort of your smile.
I don't know what went wrong.
I don't know what I've become.
I feel like a stranger without a home.
Everyday wishing the pain away.
Now you're gone but I'm here to stay.
Stuck, nowhere else to go.
Replaying the day you said goodbye.
Feeling myself sink so low.

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i will never stop crying for you

Feb 2015 effaced

Irish

i will never stop crying for you

my heart will cry for you
until tears turn to blood
until time stops and all the worlds stop spinning
until there is nothing left to love
still, my heart will cry for you
until all stars stop shining
until every living things stop breathing
and until all songs stop playing
my heart will always cry for you
forever does not exist
but my love for you is everlasting
you can break my heart
you can break everything
you can even break me, tear me into pieces
until all of me ceases to exist
until my calls stop reaching you
until my lungs stop breathing for you
you can take everything from me
you can even take away my sanity
but not until you make me stop loving you
not until then
will my heart stop crying for you

#love #heart #miss #forever

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Scratches

Feb 2015 effaced

Caraphernelia

Scratches

I just wanna die
Leaving all darks memories behind
Maybe lay under the cold rain
After death comes after me

What if a silver blade
Plays under my pale skin
And scarlet rivers run out of my veins
Until I can feel no pain

So I wonder if this was right
Or even if this isn't true
I just have to tell you
I'm sorry I really do

Excuse me if I can't cry
My eyes have no more tears
Blame all those sleepless nights
And those tragic years

Please forgive this erratic soul
Who can't understand how to be
In this freaking reality
Where everyone feels a hole

And is time to face the truth
I became a rotten one
I'm heartless monster
Who can't love even if I try

So now instead of looking
For redemption, miracle or pray
No my darling I don't behave well
I'm going to hell

Now pills wont affect me
Neither scratches will do
Only the pain I feel
After death comes after me

- Scratches, A suicidal poem

#sad #depressed #blood #soul #suicidal #scratches

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Option

Feb 2015 effaced

20something

Option

I think what hurts me the most
is knowing that even after all this time
you still won't choose me first

#love #heartbreak #broken #sad #depression #life #heart #pain #thoughts #you

Feb 2015 effaced

She.

Feb 2015 effaced

Senate

She.

she bared her soul for all to see. The hurt, the pain, the emptyness..it was all there. The scars she had, some gasped as they saw the, some acted shocked and others couldn't even find hide the disgust. "She is an attention seeker" they all said. She walked away, with no care whatsoever. The next morning they called for her, silence. Her mother's screams could be heard down the road. "Society killed me" she wrote, just before taking her own life, she knew it was coming, she knew and she was okay with it, she was always ready.

#depression #anxiety #melancholy