I almost lost the will to write
You gave me inspiration
Even if it was madness
I don't want to lose this
If I do, I will lose you too.

this guilt
it's eating me up alive
I was caught off guard.

I am shattered to pieces
This pain I am feeling is so natural yet
It came to me unannounced
Was I so oblivious to the extent I became blind
I've been here before
Is this deja vu or I was just plain stupid

A week has gone by
Still seeking for your love and attention
Is this my punishment?
Now i will give you some time and space
I guess you are an astronaut in the making.

it
maybe
good
bad
or
ugly
it
needs
to
end.

Too sad to shed a tear.
Too dazed to be confused.
Too chaotic to be angry.
Too broken to write anything sensible.
Too much of everything is dreadful.

My heart is beating fast
Had I taken too much caffeine?
Was I running too fast?
Did I fail a test?
Too many things lurking in my mind

Then I remembered
I was thinking of you
Your eyes that stares right thru me
Your smile when you looked at me
Your taste when you kissed me
and Your warmth when you hugged me

It pains me that you're nowhere near
I am missing you badly
Come home to me
I'll be waiting.............

the irony of us
so ****** up
that we live our lives
just to distract ourselves
from the harsh reality

is this our infinity
it's short lived and little time
many things are yet to be discovered

is this it? where to begin with,
we haven't started, yet it's ending
how sure are you?

as I watch you walking away from me
you took my heart and soul with you
my breath. my love. my everything.

now i'm weeping thru this pain
with clenched teeth and bleeding gums
how to bear this?

Nothing is fair in love and war
Torn between right and wrong
Losing your heart and mind
The flesh and soul conquering dominance
And in the end, it's only you, no one else.

Star light, Star bright
Twinkling in the night sky
Shining all through the night
Here I am, wishing with all of my might
That you were here with me tonight

It's inevitable
I was afraid of the risk
They said "you always have a choice"
I guess I choose you.

you shared to me your past, it wasn't pleasing to hear but okay. so when our nose touched
i saw the crinkles in your eyes, the moment our lips collided it was heaven for me
then I asked is this just a one time thing?
you said no, but there were some complications still we got throught it.

that was the start of i like you's turned into i love you's.

Lost in this euphoric moment
I feel giddy inside
Then I think about you
This feels so wrong.

Where are you?

I though the search was over.
I thought I found myself.
I though I was going to be happy once and for all.

Yet I am still a lost soul, who doesn't know her purpose.

it pains me seeing you like this
you say you're okay but look
you're drinking your sorrows
you're still yearning for her.

i feel like an intruder in your life
where should I place myself?
should I stay? should I mourn with you?
i'm sorry for your loss, i guess.

It all started when I closed my eyes, waiting for those lips to collide with mine. You said you like me, teased me many times but it was all just a trap and it ruined my mind.

Longing for your touch
Craving for your taste
Missing you in every way possible
But you were merely my
TEMPORARY BLISS.

Should I just listen while rem​i​nisce about your past? You were giddy and excited to share it to me, what a blast!

Did it ever cross your mind? The pain that i felt, when you talk about her in front of me! But nevermind.

Do I have the right to question you!? Colors are showing and i don't like the hue.

I love you , I love showing it; I love expressing it. I want you to feel that
Every fiber of my being loves you. I value you, I respect you.

You are not perfect, you're far from it, but who is. I see your flaws and imperfections, and you are not afraid to show it because you are not ashamed of who you are, and I love you for that. You still commit mistakes, have some toxic traits, but that can be managed. You hear me out, you give me space, and you provide things that I don't need to ask for.You're the guy that I prayed for, so please be the one. They say timing plays a big part, so why not make this the right because you'll never know unless you commit to it.

You deserve everything that the world can offer; it may be tangible or intangible. I may not be the perfect girl for you, but I can be the right one for you.

Felt so much pain that I forgot that I could cry to find relief
But how to cry when you get used to it, like grief.
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always asking but never addressed, is it that hard to give?