My heart is creeping out of my system
Beating fast I don't want to succumb

My nerves are popping, my eyes are weeping
My teeth are bleeding, My lungs are dying...

Goodbye? Well if it fits;
A farewell, dying little by little until you seize to exist.

Cried to relinquish this feeling
Yet I seeked for more
I need to let this go before it consumes me
Don't want to destroy what I built for myself

But I was a coward and caved in
Slash here, drip there
The stinging feeling made me feel normal and alive
The satisfaction that I felt, how euphoric
The adrenaline rush it gave me pure ecstasy
Satisfied but disheartened
Happy but Sad

Back to Zero,
Gonna Begin Again.

Every little thing you do
Makes me feel valued
Every little detail that you say
Makes my heart melt

Your imperfections and flaws
Makes me fall for you harder
Your courage and confindence
Makes me feel proud

You are you despite your mistakes
You are also who you are going to be
and what you are going to be

I accept you in every little aspect
Of your being, just be you
Grow and I'll be with you

the pain that you are causing me ****!
how oblivious are you?
talking about her pains me so much.
you are always asking me why?
don't you dare!
it's breaking me
before me you had her
dead or alive
it will always be her
and it will stay that way
until the end of this charade.

Too many ideas lurking in my mind
I'd like to make a poem that is aligned
But i have mixed emotions, so nevermind


Am i Happy? Sad? Angry? Or just Confused?
What to feel if loneliness is intertwined?

Roses are red, Violets are blue
She's already dead
But still dear to you.

I did not met you
I do not know you
I don't know why I am hurt
maybe because
before me there was you
who made him laugh
who made him whole
but you left and broke him to the core of his existence that he forgot how to live.

So this is what it feels like
To feel pain and suffering
It makes me feel so alive yet
I also feel dead inside

What did I expect?
I was so naive that you'd come
To save us from this torment and agony
That I put ourselves in

I yearned for you, I longed for you
I am still waiting for you, but where are you?
You really hate me do you?
Don't you want this?

Is this your way of saying goodbye?
If this isn't love, i don't know what is.
My Beginning, Middle and End...
Thank you love.

I was looking
I needed to fill the void
Got bruised along the way
Yet to find nothing

Then you came to me
What a dream you are
Filling the spaces
Lighting my darkness

You are the perfect fit
Too good to be true
I'll cherish this, while I have you.

I  fell with the most unexpected person
I was in awe by the thought of her
I felt giddy and my inner child was giggling
There were freaking dinosaurs in my stomach doing somersaults
Is this what it feels like to be in love and be loved? If not, then I don't want this to end.

Timing plays a big part
I thought I was ready
Ready to start again
Good thing I pulled back a little
Now all that I built
All the sweat & blood that I shed
Bore fruit

Now we are both ready to start this journey.

You said "I love you"
how long will it last?
I want to leave
while I am still whole
while I am still me
while I still can.

I am broken but still in one piece.

The first time we met, you were only a nuisance in my world.
The moment you spoke, I made a face full of disgust.
Who could stand that level of obnoxiousness.
Days, Weeks, Months have passed then we meet again.

We met again on a different circumstance.
You said Hi, I said Hello. You were intrigued by who I was.
Asked questions to our common friend, you were in awe.
Little did you know so was I. The vibe you gave off, the things we have in common. Hmmm is this kismet?

The timing was truly perfect. They said it plays a big role.
The only problem was we weren't right for each other.
We tried, we pushed into it but it was already a disaster right from the beginning.

We were only a mere chapter of each other stories.

We were okay
or so I thought
While I was working things out for us
you were working things out to get out
Why? Why? Why?

Couldn't get enough;
Drowned in your love
Suffocated by your madness
I pulled away, now I'm missing your touch

You left a mark in my soul
Now to let the world know
I marked it on my flesh.

How I am unconditionally in love with you.