Whatever you do - you can never lure me
Little does she know I am in trance
Worlds away in her presence
She is everything star - season and air
I hold breath for her perfume weakens me
Sucker for her quaky voice I remain
I hate how she ***** me into her world
Even more - I hate being far from it
Never will I be a citizen
Hopefully a second more she will be mine to hold

how do I sound known words
without being a cliché
how do I explain your being
without reducing you to normalcy
how do I explain I want you
when we are two worlds apart
how do I ask you these questions
Without echoing naivety  
how do I put question marks on these questions
                                                       ­  How?

set me ablaze with your fiery aura
keep me safe in your welcoming hands
awaken me with your gentle touch
make my world anew with your smile
free me from bondages of loneliness
color me blind with your essence
                                           is this how?

Hello, this is Onij. I'm glad you missed my call
I know nobody listens to voicemails but
I'm afraid you gave me something.
It seems to be contagious and I've been spreading it
I see it on their faces, I saw it in the mirror.
The smile you left me with is uncontainable.
My heart flutters at every thought of you.
Dear patient zero,
It is advisable that we should quarantine together
Body to body is the recommended solution
Three times a day, multiple times at night, twice on Sunday
On my knees I'll worship you
Lift you to a state of  exaltance
Dear patient zero
I want to tell you that I...
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Should I die before you, forgive me
Forgive my absent shoulder for your head
For my ears hearing not your cries
For my arms too numb to hold you

Should I die before you, forgive me
Forgive my image for slipping through your mind
For my voice for echoing to silence
Forgive my heart for not beating more for you

Should I die before you, forgive me
Forgive me for shattering our future plans  
For turning our happy places into ghost towns
For taking your happiness to the grave with me

Should I die after you, I forgive you.

No, it’s not true
I’m not trying to change you
I just want you to see
You are most beautiful at your natural state
Your extensions blur your crown
Your powder and paint distort your beauty
It blinds not only I but you to your esteem
No, it’s not true
I’m not trying to demean you
I just want you to see
If they make you so beautiful and empowered
Why do you wipe it off for me and put it on for them?
Do you hate me that much that I’m to look at the ugly you?
If you can’t see who you are, who should?

I love you, you love me
I think
I see you, you see me
I think
I miss you, you miss me
I doubt
I am yours, you are mine
I ...

Sometimes you are
Abstracted
Ever present
Extremely vocal
So reticent

Honestly I am being unfair
Those are my thoughts
Not my reality
I think
I know You'll never hurt me
I think

Sometimes I am
Abstracted
So reticent
Confused