Should I die before you, forgive me
Forgive my absent shoulder for your head
For my ears hearing not your cries
For my arms too numb to hold you

Should I die before you, forgive me
Forgive my image for slipping through your mind
For my voice for echoing to silence
Forgive my heart for not beating more for you

Should I die before you, forgive me
Forgive me for shattering our future plans  
For turning our happy places into ghost towns
For taking your happiness to the grave with me

Should I die after you, I forgive you.

No, it’s not true
I’m not trying to change you
I just want you to see
You are most beautiful at your natural state
Your extensions blur your crown
Your powder and paint distort your beauty
It blinds not only I but you to your esteem
No, it’s not true
I’m not trying to demean you
I just want you to see
If they make you so beautiful and empowered
Why do you wipe it off for me and put it on for them?
Do you hate me that much that I’m to look at the ugly you?
If you can’t see who you are, who should?

I love you, you love me
I think
I see you, you see me
I think
I miss you, you miss me
I doubt
I am yours, you are mine
I ...

Sometimes you are
Abstracted
Ever present
Extremely vocal
So reticent

Honestly I am being unfair
Those are my thoughts
Not my reality
I think
I know You'll never hurt me
I think

Sometimes I am
Abstracted
So reticent
Confused