How derivative, how done before
To curse the day your mother bore you
You collapse and cry and beg no more
These Earthly trials are just not for you
If you won't step into my shoes
I'll make you walk in them till you're bleeding
If you can't feel what I am feeling
I'll make you regret all you've been seeding

I'll cut you up and **** you so you'll see
just exactly what you've done to me

[did god make You without a heart? did he make You in his image? or did you take that mantle yourself?
tell me, is it blasphemy to make Yourself greater than the divine? I hate you. I think I might really hate you. I wish I was dead.]

Tutti frutti you say I’m a cutie  
So come over here and share your cooties
Come over here and share your cooties
There’s no need to be aloof or snooty
I’ll let you have your share of my cooties

Relax a little, I like you a lot
I’ll share with you all the love that I’ve got
It’s lot, you know, with this big ole heart
I’m a forward girl, a cherry ****
I’m a lot, I know, but make no mistake
All I ask is a little give and take
Lotta love given, boy, so replenish it
Give me back, all you've bit
chewed
and swallowed.

Can tell by your glances
there's no way to hide it
I act cutely cuz I know
it'll make you excited
pretty boy, pretty boy
hurry hurry hurry
come kiss me my lip gloss
tastes just like strawberries

i try to accept that i’ll walk around with this emptiness in me forever
maybe when you mishandled my soft clay body, you left holes within me that can’t be filled
ive never once grown up, have i?
im scared day in and day out, one wrong move
and my aged and hardened body will shatter

the hands that formed me were loving
soft caresses sculpted me into a beautiful being, the image of the divine
entrusted in the arms of children, my malleable body was abused
and mishandled  
so i hardened into an ugly ugly thing
gentler, i beg, because im not as soft as i used to be
if you toss me around like that ill surely shatter under the weight of ur anger
i am not the image of my Father
but a reflection of the devils He left me in the care of
you are all i’ll ever be, aren’t you? i see you in me, you’re in me, more and more everyday and my insides collapse at the weight of your sins
and your father’s sins
and his father’s sins
weren’t you supposed to protect me? your hatred has warped my soul into an unsalvageable, unloveable thing, i know it too well
i once thought that my Father delighted in molding my soul in His image
that He gave me His hands, and His ability to create beautiful things
now i know these hands will only destroy
like you did to me

It's been so long since I fell in love I'm afraid I don't have a heart
It's been so long since I've written of a man like a work of art
Wasn't I your ingenue?
Your sweet treat angel muse
You'd press your lips so hard upon my skin it'd leave a bruise
My lover, I could sketch the angles of your face all day long
and you could sing me a song, my Orpheus
Throat coated in honey, put it under my tongue
Hypnotize me till I'm helplessly sprung and strung along
I can't recall I can't recall (the last time I fell in love)
I wonder I wonder did I love you at all?

Press your fingertips upon my heart and leave a mark
I'll heal within a month, forget we ever loved
Did I love you at all? Does your heart bear the markings of a turbulent changeling, a lover worth singing of?
Did I dream you up? A pathetic school girl's fantasy
O my darling, draw me away

Hallow like a vase, I'm pouring all this water onto the floor
All the flowers put in me are rotted they're no more
Since when have I been so self-centered?
Since when were you such a bore?
All the little delightful things lately feel like such a ******* chore
Throw myself down and break this body to pieces
Anything at all if this tedium ceases
Anything, anything, anything at all
Anything at all if I could somehow cease this..
..this overwhelming feeling of frustration.

Chased winds blow forever, do they ever get tired?
Does the watchful sun remember a toiler ever satisfied?
Is he satisfied with his lot in life? Am I? Am I?
I can't recall the last time I cried
I told you I loved you I lied I lied I lied
I'd break your heart into shards if this tedium ceased
Pierce my flesh with those shards if it meant I'm released
from this fragile desolation, my lack of love for you
Would someone please tell me where my heart ran off to?

You are velvet under my fingertips, honey on my tongue.
So, love me.
Everything about you is lovable. Everything about you draws me in. Love me. Love me. Pour your love out onto me, kiss me with the kisses of your mouth, lavishing them from my neck to my thighs, ******* roughly on my soft, supple skin. Love me. Let me take you in. Let me kiss the breadth of your chest, let me caress your sweet, endearing face, love me, love me, let me pour my love out over you, onto you, into you. I want to hear how much you love how I love you.

I don't.

I want to press kisses against all your bruises. You soften my sodden heart. You're so pitiful it's endearing. My poor boy. My poor poor boy. Please don't cry, or I'll want to comfort you. Please don't look so sad. Don't look like you love me, or it might make me love you.

There’s no room for me in my own life.  My body cramps and contorts to fit into the narrow little space you’ve allotted for me to occupy, and even then, you manage to take it all up. You’ve barged in on every aspect of my life. It doesn’t even feel like mine anymore. Yes, my life is yours, to do with what you will. You are a god. Omniscient. Omnipotent. Omnipresent. You are everywhere. I am not a fully formed person at all; I am a child clinging to her father’s hand, lest the evils of the world ****** her up and tempt her to sin.