Heat waves shimmer every winters dimmer
But summer is an oncomer heat waves for the sinners
Shimmer for all the winners losers lost in the winter
Heatwaves they shimmer over the river
Here I shiver and I feel it in my liver
Heatwaves in my liver while I think about livin here
Winter draw nearer cold shivers an wood splinters
Another heatwave another summer another winter
Sit and shimmer if your a winner
I sit and shiver away the summer
Never ever shimmer lost in the river
Flowin in deep water I teeter totter
Falter heat waves in my liver
In the middle of winter
Always wanted to sit and shimmer in the summer
Be like those winners like stop and shimmer in the mirror
But in water life go where it go always forward never clearer
Never fair without care about who or where waves in layers
Everyone a player some losers some winners all those sinners
Come winter all shiver but not all shimmer not all star chasers
Seein farther than father or how I got here visions clearer
Seers in the shimmer life livers who go farther than their father
While others sit and shiver in winter thinking about dinner
Some summer I'm gonna shimmer like just look at him in the mirror

Down down
Down down down
I've been feeling down

Whats up
My friends doped up
Everyone's ****** up


My friend she pops pills
Makes her mind go still
He's an alcoholic
Couple drinks an stoic
Crush it up and burn it up
Thats my fam doped an ****** up
I'm on a hallucinogen
I'm lit the only time I grin
Sin until we feel fine again

Sippin from the bottle, Slippin off the throttle
Strippin Inhibition, Wobble out the hovel

Well well its that time again
Afterwork losing my mind
Afterword nothing to find
Outside the pane is the rain


Watching as I fall behind the curve not doing enough
Shoot dice and put in no effort cause I'm lazy as ****
And its snake eyes again **** just my luck
Now its over and that's rough well tough

Unbelievable its getting worse
Guess that's life running its course
Entropy takes us all back to the source

Evermore and ever less
Nonsense is what I confess

Until there's nothing left

**** the facts fictions in the diction
****** win that's the corporate mission
They want whats best that's a lie of omission

Freezing, rights have me silent
Teasing sights have me pliant
Leasing rights for some guidance
Rolling dice to catch a balance

Cold seeps in, all accounts are frozen
Death creeps up nowhere to go snowed-in
I sleep dream of fire, heat, and passion
Upkeep steep a wire, a heart, and compassion

Rewire my brain a jumpstart
Replace my heart a new part
Revive my passion a fresh start
Reboot the system its time to restart

A hypocrite to the bone
Trite words said to none
A life spent all alone

Lethal doses and a handful of fairy dust
Feed on the rust be mirthful or go bust
Life is roses all plastic and lust

Don't live anymore round here just make a living
Hold knives by blades and keep on smiling
It's all ours this hollow empty nothing

To crave and be craven and lose yourself to the raven
A slave to maybe lost in a fools haven
But a brave man is a dead man left in the midden

A time to be forgotten best left unspoken
Like fission or economics after the cokes in
Playbook bitten by suits when they clock in
A fluke when reservoirs lack poison

Some people deserve it all that's what I was taught
Some are better at birth and some people I am not
Have you seen the sun its in their pockets
Will your sons be born as the have nots

Death sentences at birth and that's not abortion
Sayeth the zipcodes your worth and your position
Don't be born worthless or your portions starvation
Dont be luckless because lessons show chance is salvation

Praise god of the latter day the lord of us
I said praise the status and praise the money
In the land of plenty our lives are before us
Can you lend me god I could use a twenty

Tick tock another second gained your life arranged
Clocks abound framed and bound forward marched
Now tense is present where sensation moans
Passion over sense actions set into stone
How many will reach us when thrown
And reach the seed that will be grown

I discarded my heart in the dirt
Buried with my pain and hurt
Follow my idol the punk Kurt

I live among many broken men
All of us with dented hearts of tin
Born to work and now work begins
Born separate now make the ends meet
I live among many broken men
Long gone rented out our hearts of tin
Born from labor now the labor never ends
Born desperate men of flesh men of meat

Never will the skin mend
Souls often stolen by the sin
Alcohol takes us all in the end
Spoken foul beaten brow ignorant men
Scars of hard work don't mend
Holes where darkness bleeds in
Tramadol pain killers quicken the end
Broken scowl Silent howl itinerant men

Scars on my back match the scars on my lungs
I can't ever take it back I've already made the jump
Funny thing is now I don't hate myself
Funny thing is now all I have is myself
Self love narcissism and wealth
Roads paved listen as I pour out my health
Woes and leaves fall where I once knelt

Life is a treat from your betters
So step to the letter step with fetters
Mice are good cheddar getters
Up the ladder type in your headers

Office spaces and other empty places
Smiling faces and glassy eyes
Corporate lives where everybody lies
From the top floors how many will fly

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Hell is sent from the past
All body and *** living trash
Tats plaster like a mask
Let loose and shirk the tasks

Beer bottles in the lawn
Full throttle till I'm gone
Burning alive up and down town
Moths after fires we're drawn

I just want to **** my rage
Put two bullets in this age
But I can't find the keys to my cage
Got these needs chaining me with a wage
Emptiness in my eyes the void is a phage

It propagates from nothing
Springs from empty living
This police state is sickening
Its body is rotten and decaying
Can we euthanize the nation of slaving

I worry that progress is over
I worry that its now or never
And I worry that we will pick never
All while I clock in and work the levers

Living is so ******* incredible
It makes me ******* miserable
Always knowing I'm not on the level
I know its lame to be so cynical
But how am I supposed to be hopeful

Everything is buzzwords and clickbait pandering
I hope its not too foreword but we're all dying
And if words are stronger than swords then bloods flying
We know the times are trying and say bullets are coming
Viruses, diseases, and pathogens  all the same thing

Death cults on their side they fight so we all die
Ancient evils six decades old still grasping fading lives
They rule our feeble lands pervert our will as a nation fades
Some souls tremble and say this will be the end of days
Some souls shake and say they will ******* pay

Maybe I'm cynical by I say its just another day and they're gonna get paid
The critics will wax they will fade lives for cash thats always the trade
Tell me whats your wage you in the fields or the house do you have it made?
Just tell yourself atleast its not a third world like the ones we made
We get to feast while the poor are in famine now thats a trade

Grew up in the country of giants where a gun is a common appliance
And if you show the law defiance you'll come to understand violence

One shot and your poverty stains the alley
I want to be somebody who escaped that valley
Its hard to be nobody puking out in the alley
Probably just be another body on the gurney

Moved smart, worked hard, played my part
Five shots in the dark now the heart don't start
Lost the keys now the car stays parked
Still got the gas to get higher stayin sparked

Jesus he won't save us pastors and nuns are just people
Won't save us they told us we were ****** from the steeple
So **** them take my thirty pieces of silver and turn to evil
If that's what it takes to survive and be successful
If that's what it takes to stay alive then I'll be awful

But I tell these kids to keep their chins up and stay out the dirt
Acting like our sins haven't buried them at birth life's gonna hurt

Thats the truth a lot more pain waits than was in our way
So I soak in vermouth to stay sane in the states of the fray

Eye on the prize but I won't grab it
Brains been fried on a skillet
Loaded up with fire on a pallet

On the way down with the face of a clown
Doom in the town death looms all around
Why the long faced frown what have we found

Blood in the paint and I sip it
Mud in the joint when I hit it
Ash in the vein and I slit it

Mirth and merry in a brazen bull
Flesh is scary we'll flay the fool
Hope is scary we'll pay the toll

On the way down with grease painted faces
Darkness unknowns without any traces
Flying straight down like four aces

Tents gather as permanence  loses its moor
Sold it for two pence and went on tour
What a joke to have hope anymore

Hatred for the old gods, god I hate them
We sprung from their ***** and it began
Inducted into the circus right then

I get drunk just to pass the time
Sunk to low now whats the rhyme
Not cold out but my face is numb
Am I bold or just ******* dumb

Are we here or are we in hell
So unclear I can never tell
I just wait to hear the dinner bell

My fill of meat and of greens
Blood soaked steak and bloodier means
Food produced without break rough and lean

Nothing tender about ******* marrow
Something in a blender weeping tomorrows
Meal pink pasty guts in a feeding barrow

Take it slowly not too late to believe
Listen quietly silence flows through a sieve
It talks of the empty and of reprieve

Voids cavitate in my head and heart
My drink is lead in part
Slowly kills my head losing my heart
Not quite dead just wont start

Maybe it'll change but its a pity
Stuck here broke and down in the city
Get high and happy with my last fifty
Older every year but barely over twenty

I take it slowly tell myself I can still believe
Quietly cause the silence will outlive
The empty hollow me seeking a reprieve
Silence as I take my leave

When?

Tick tock another second gained your life arranged
Clocks abound framed and bound forward marched
Now tense is present where sensation moans
Passion over sense actions set into stone
How many will reach us when thrown
And reach the seed that will be grown

Where.

Once so loud gone quiet, read our lives plot synopsis
Where is pride when you live in edges of solipsis
In a stones shade I am alive treading after sisyphus

Who?

A man or a child
Blessed or left for dead
Am I the words said
Or sins committed
The name cherished
But feels so ashamed

What.

A hypocrite to the bone
Trite words said to no one
A life spent all alone

Why

Something in the water get caught and you'll drown
Just bought a bottle and we're all headed down
Doesn't matter if you drop out or got a cap and gown
Bitter but feel better after a night out on the town
Go getters and quitters all buried under this ground

Its the future and the time flows like mercury
Retrograde, retrowave, means lost in nostalgia
All composure in present is from more *****

Citys alight at night fires burn brighter futures lookin brighter
Ash and blight fills our sight screams and sirens get louder  
Crash incoming cant see obstacles incoming hit the powder
Blast off explosions turn projects to dust and mortar
As it settles to coals after pyrotechnics a moment is quieter

Regain composure in the present with more *****
The future is a toxin and it flows like mercury
Look back retrograde, retrowave, lost in nostalgia

Details weigh heavy in the air we breathin  
Deceit flys every way as broadcast speakin
Repeats leak in many lungs as they breath it in
Doors open and now the thieves are in
Laws broken and the people are misbegotten

Obsessed with retrograde, retrowave nostalgia
Losin composure theres never enough *****
Toxins flow in, time flows out, its like mercury

The earths baked and the landmass disappears with snowflakes
Hearts been staked in class learned we're all soon to die its fate
Parts they break and these are the last as fear grows it gets late
Charts talkin they doomsay, hearsay, naysay, scream mayday
Just wanna say its gonna be okay, but I won't lie not today

Hope swirls round and round the holes in my head.
Heart pulses pound  pound as I roll in my bed.

What do I live for? What do I die for?
Do I want more? What would it be for?

Just trying to close my eyes but I'm in the deep end again
Just trying to lose my sighs but I'm depressed and its a drain

I'm golden and jaded a dreaded choker round the neck
Rhymes sodden, faded, and overstated what a wreck

Maybe feign my death just close my eyes and finally rest
A baby cryin for breath so sözel; lies sandy easily infest

Every nook of life filled with uncomfortable grains
The ground shook as I lied with comfortable pains

If your feeling optimistic then go get checked at your optometrist
I've been called a cynic but I really feel dead and pessimistic  
Always been a critic to curb the sickness I smoke it chronic
Words like knives and the cuts are turning septic
Anxious hives over what was progress is caustic
Patience leaves us desiccated and filled with plastic
The elders worship ******* and fascist isn't it tragic
Currency fetters us wagies compliance tacit to magats
Urgency after the page is riddled fully automatic
Solvency under law since the Ritten word became tactic
Theorys get bitten from a foxes tale ripped from static
Its a habit of cult classics like Catholics oppressing hicks
We sit in this death cult around psychotics or rock the ship
Have to prove good and antibiotics can still cure this ****
Or face terminal loss and watch our kids eat the bullet

Your pain, my pain
All the same
Here's rain, here’s Jane
An open flame

Calm the counterpart
Warm my broken heart
A lot on the flat mind
A lot like a flat line

I help you, to help me
Deja Vu, Deja Vu
I hurt you, it hurt me
I used to, follow through

Space without a sun
Race that cant be won
Room without a friend
Event none will attend

I want to help
I care about you
Don’t want to help
Don’t care about me

Ghost ships cruise down the fifty ounce
Phantom pains arise as I drink the rounds
In post sanity days, a muddy haze abounds

Grew up without a hand to hold
Only company was my soul
No one ever mistook me for cool

Dreams of friends and a world I want
watching dead ends rotting with the bunch
Seeds and stems left by my captain crunch

Daddy was an addict but he never panicked
taught me that magic was found in the cracks
That form from tragic lives never looking back

Never knew trust or understood the judge
Nothing was ever just as I stood in the sludge
And rent a center furniture stole my lunch

A B honor roll so honored by my academics
To poor for it to matter maybe I'm a cynic
But I know my masters I'm just realistic

Grew up to be someone I don't know
Where did that little kid go
And why is everything so so

So you don't want to vaccinate
You doubt the lies on your plate
But what of the truth you hate
Of skin turned greyer than slate

Grandfather, grandmother didn't hear a word
"Covids a sham" into a casket they slammed
Ever faster death does gather its all around
It abounds yet gets erased by radiowaves sound

Adults can't behave, to wants remain a slave
Maskless and unashamed not one is saved
Double down in those tasteless ways
Half a million dead dropped like flies

Still a toast is in order as progress is made
One casket at a time feel the change
Jobs open up and now I'm getting paid
Wonder why everyone is so afraid

Mostly we lose dregs who don't know when to fold
Costly now to lose so many empty heads to a "cold"
On hospital beds thinking shoulda woulda coulda
While the doctor thinks "I ****** told ya"

Breath your last, lungs in tatters, whats the matter
Maybe everyone isn't mad as hatters
Scientist in agreement with doctors
Riddle me that conspiracy theorizers  

Well I'm tired of being sad so happily I say goodbye
Let go and go in peace even if it was all a lie
So just sleep, leave your loved ones behind
Paul said it best "live and let die"

Hate so much hate it keeps me up late every night
It's not good for me but without it I'm a blank slate
Oh **** oh wait I think I've lost my childhood
And this adulthood taste like arsenic and blood
But I say I'm alright I'm great yeah I'm good

Anti-depressants for my rich friends
Narcotics in my poor friends
We all work robotic and live psychotic lives
My eyes always lie and all I hear is static
Addicts frantic to feel less feel less symptomatic

Slaves in the dirt slaves in the front
Modern capitalism is just a front
I will never escape this golden font
Drown in the money or in the debt
Don't think there's anyone happy left

Being alone its just like home
On my own thats just how it goes
To live my life most lack the stones
Bleeding out I'm losing it slow

Everyone's alone guess that's home
On your own that's how it goes
To live your life most lack the stones
Bleeding out your losing it slow

So far from utopia no one even tries
Watch the weak all die, telling themselves lies
Do you feel the betrayal of a honest days pay
Despair without hope in hell we all stay

Why do we live this way, is it the american way
The kids are dying everyday as elders pray
Mothers are crying as the NRA sponsors our grave
Born long after any better days tell me to learn a trade

Or live life as a slave working off the debt of yesterday
Worthless lives who can't even look at an ICU
I have to say it seems humanity lost its way
When scraps of paper mean more than surviving the day

Some people should just say it that they hate the less fortunate
Walls to stop immigrants they just wanted to live somewhere safe
Drugs are smuggled by the guards we pay sponsored by the state
Suburbanites who never faced real fear killing in the name of hate

Drug addicts put in prison till the rot away
Some ******* wouldn't have it any other way
We're all a cancer what else is their to say
Pray to Jesus while damning all of his ways

Put spikes under the freeway to keep them away
Build cases instead of places for the homeless to stay
Then justify it by saying who will be the one to pay
Don't know why I pay taxes anyway

Bask in radioactive snow static on the TV show
Down and down we go living in misery and woe
Spiraling down further till rock bottom is all we know
How low will we all go before we start fighting the flow

Never was in the project I grew up next to it
Word up to white privilege let me out of sewage
Friends born without a chance so **** it
If they burn this ****** down I'll live in wreckage

Hundred years ago they were objects
Hundred tears now they live in projects
Hundred dead still deaf to the subject
Hundred voices tune out this movement

Shame'em for kneeling ruin a career make a mockery
So ****'em no complaining enough fear not sorry
Protest erupt in the country built on the back of slavery
**** the police **** the government and **** the property

This is about humanity and who we wanna be
No more hiding from reality now you have to see
And if you swear fealty to Trump you aint American
Follow a bunker ***** who saw trouble and ran

Declared antifa a terrorist movement
Antifa: **** fascism the creed
Some people wondering where peace went
Died under knee unable to breath

To serve and protect that's what they say
To observe and oppress that's the reality
They been taking from every poor community
****, maybe its finally time that they pay

A human with empathy could never be content with this ****
If you chant blue lives matter or MAGA then die you *****
Humanity will never progress till we're all equal in this *****
Lastly if you don't support the movement then **** my ****

Corpses follow me everywhere
Every step is dread on the stair
Me and empty airs always a pair
What do they care

Gods in a zero and ego is the one
Encoded on the sconce carved in bone
Digits grasp at scripts, flicker on the tome
This is no home

Shadow tints off its sheen a wraith
Misty eyes drown a foggy faith
Murdochs docket was a taste
Billions with a face

Senses made listless buzzed and restless
Rinse the gristle till its sodden an lifeless
Spawn pence on a trumpets estrus
Bile wins the race

Air flows through a blue spile
Just leave the corpse on its pile
Ghetto birds nest outside landfills
You'll stay awhile

States of matter are caged, slain, and in pain
State of a master gated golden ghoulish grins
State your worth state it at birth and begin
To not matter is sin

Plaque in the heart black is the art
Cannibals at work called it wal-mart
Consummate greed and our worst part
She's a ****, a ****

A vote another class war lost at the poll
A painful visual till the orbs sunk into my skull
Wistful introspection absorbed into my own soul
Blind to the quiet cull

Never needed a reward to give my heart away
Never needed a punishment for my edges to stay

I don't believe in flying away into a divine sky
And falling into a abyss of pain seems a lie

When I draw my final breath I'm okay
If it is the last time I say goodbye

No perfection to be found in my soul
And I think the many flaws are cool

The human body is not just a tool
To obtain eternity, but maybe I'm a fool

I always give my heart away
And keep my edges at bay

I do not sit and pray
Not for a holy play

But for my own desire and pride
To find my way ego is my guide

In local news a killers on the loose
And he's tying up another noose
your neck feels awful, loose

The ******* son burns high above
Father is gone where has he gone
He's lost in love or has he lost his love
Don't you take that tone

Don't you know what he's done
Shouldn't you tell someone
Before its all done and gone

The ******* sun burns high above
It's tattered but its warm
It's rays push and shove
They grip till the fabrics torn

Silk and velour how did you afford more
Lost his ***** and now he feels poor
Her neck circled with silk and velour

You saw purple through the crack in the door
Witnessed light battered in the daylight
Now speaking to death your not so sure
What is illusion and what is right

Just need to see one more just to be sure
The ******* sun will shine once more
A noose in the news at four

Another dead *****
Then sirens knock at the door
And you tell them your not sure
Why this body rests on your floor

In local news a killer faces the noose
And his neck is looking awful, loose

So many claim that they will commit violence
But are cowards who will commit to silence
In the moments of need remain still and compliant
Thank goodness for others cowardice
How else would we have unregulated avarice

First they took someone faraway and nobody cared
No-one had a single thing to say cuz nobody cared
Then they took someone a city away and nobody cared
The news lost behind twenty tragedy's cuz nobody cared
Then they took a local vagrant and nobody cared
Water cooler rumors and talk of sunny days, nobody cared
Then they took your neighbor and nobody cared
You sat scared and prayed while nobody cared
Then they took you and nobody cared
I asked myself should I have cared

Should I have seen the signs of the times
Jackboots replace police shoes
Gunshots at protest crowds
Bricks on top of pallets in city centers
Alt right killers and school shooters
Leaders taking shots posing with glocks
Twitter over judges and lawyers
So many criminals who think they're warriors
So many family's in houses and they aren't owners
Money on islands with child *******

But what could I do as far as I knew it was business as usual
How could I know how to end the sins of business casual
When I'm told this practice makes money and the business is masterful
Brainwash the masses and **** their kids then call business tasteful
Even the end of the world makes money, never is business wasteful
It has just been business as usual, every ******* day is business as usual
Business as usual, just keep going like its a business as usual
Wake up, get ready, and go to work its business as usual
I clock in, I clock out, I go to lose myself its just business as usual
lose my heart, lose my soul , lose my ******* mind and its business as usual

Going extinct I'm at the brink
Just gotta think got to think
But i'm busy puking in the sink

My heart is so ******
Isn't that how it should be

We worship under angry gods who count each and every sin
Scripture says its best to applaud as our home shall burn
So sayeth the flock so sayeth the lord look back and be unborn
Justice in faith Holyness to those that placate the form
Just once I wish to live life more than the meek and the worm
To get caught in the eye of a needle and be lost in the storm
My lifestyle called feeble looked at like I grew out horns
Living too idle, I'm no Able but I know I'm not Cain
Guess some see it as all the same can only live in one lane
Faith is the only way to deliver oneself from eternal pain
But if its all the same I'm fine gonna embrace a way of my own soon

I remember, left you on read
In December looks like your dead

Life is formed from the void of nothing
Life it ends when it becomes nothing

But its just another start
A neverending buffet cart

Empty of life picked clean
In a few blinks stocked again

Life is unending even when stars die
With a bang, teardrops will dot the sky

Cycles upon cycles life stretches onward inescapable
I won't hide from death but from life I would if i was able

Freedom of speech is only ever true
If no one is listening to you
Watch what you say you can disappear too

Empty holes in my thoughts
I thought to lose my soul
I am the bard I am the fool
Don't go too far that's the rule
that's the rule that's the rule

The world is a tool that's rusted brown
Once was cool that glistened an glown
A fool who hastened to the ground
Mortal wounds my laughter found
I am an actor and a clown

The passion burned hot now it burns not
From the throat came every broken note
I rely on the rope never once on hope
One will hold you afloat
The other holds until you choke

Bad thoughts so many that I get lost
I thought of something once but I forgot
Ghosts haunt my brain crawling like maggots in soup
I am a gracious host to each and every parasite that roosts
Feed them posts as they crawl through sites tying a noose

I can only cry in my dreams
I think I busted at the seams
No more appetite
I've become light
And in the night I hear the screams
Its dark its bright its blood on screen
Gonna need sunscreen for atomic rays
Gotta be cruel yeah gotta be mean cuz it pays
Least thats what the boss says but he's full of it
Yeah hes rich and I'm worthless but he's full of ****

My skin is uncomfortable why are you feeling so emotional
In third person he's reasonable snap back and I'm emotional
I need rest but he wants to **** the constable
He feels less but I want to fill it with cables
Turn the diode on and it feels so sensational
A ***** glass or two left on the table
Just pretend the drugs are inspirational

Nothing eats away at me
Just wanna sleep away my life
Trying to be happy
Please, could you tuck me in tight
Just laugh with me
I'm okay I'll be alright
Stay with me
I don't want to fight
Or bleed
An ugly sight
Me
A rough night
Your right
write

Split you face open and pretend its all okay
This is taste its okay atleast thats what they say
Keep it pasted on your face till the end of the day
Now stop ignore the big thoughts and the little ones too
Just stay afloat in the monotone, life is just a que
I can cause I know how to smile and now so do you

**** I think this might be the end
Do you want it, do you need a hand
Applause ****** and roar across the land

Take the hand and bite chew it up and ask do I spit or do I swallow
Lost in sound all night threw it up in a mask taste the spit and bile

Hey stop whats that sound look whats goin round
its ashes to ashes and I keep falling down

The abyss screams at me and I scream silently
No seams left to bust everyone watches intently

Will he stay or will he go
The thread frays when will he die
Its okay no one will know