Smoking wax till the day wanes
Lights off, blinded to stay sane
The bodys out of frame

A desire to die in this fire
The pyre burns ever higher
I'm burning in this desire

Saliva in the wound fashion the blood
Salivate when blood hits the wood
Stake the woods with something crude

I admire the passion of the cult
****** psychos spewing guilt
Pseudo intellectuals feel the melt
Ice to water blood to salt
People scalped then fear the pelt

In the clouds hear the sound of a menace crowned
Proud people spread hate aloud and incite the crowds
Good people cowed no words and a blunted sword

Every day the righteous die and fade away
Well I heard the best way to live is to die anyway
Have patience then the prize will be some pay
Didn't realize that meant we'd be the ones that pay

Doing all the wrong things seeking all the thrills
You know exactly what I mean
Its all found as it leaks from the seams with dollar bills
It's all exactly what is seems
Young suicidals going out without a hollow point
Ravers, molly, and lean
Pass the codeine left in a dream don't follow him out

The picture is the youth left in the cracks given no place
Filled with resentment and hate
Sutured with blue bullets and red stains divided by race
Shoot then get a statement
Die paying rent or Die sleeping on pavement
Misery is the raiment
Cut from peasant cloth life is the sentence

Maybe the next media personality has the answers we seek
Or maybe the next fatality
Wish we didn't live in reality TV in the middle everyone acts weak
Just clutching onto stability
While losing touch with sanity okay with atrocity when we cull the meek
To any we swear fealty
As long I get affordability then forget about our modern day slavery

Rotten teeth, family dead because of premiums
Still they sleep
Plotting robbery cause the family has needs
Like food to eat
Only then does help come for the victims
Cops on the beat
Track down criminals that scare the suburbans

Aren't we scary in these streets, so scary in this hell
But the demons weep
Brought to our knees some fall some just don't hear the bell
Guns and death on TV
Are these the answers given to me should I do as they tell
Crime, drugs, and ******
Taught the only outs are body bags and prison cells

Label me a radical, a criminal, a ******* liberal
Eyes are critical and logical, thoughts are cynical
I am lethal, I am suicidal, maybe homicidal

Your fealty to the wealthy is filthy
This city made of many is ******
Somebody over fifty makes the money

Won't get better can't even send a letter
Careful if you tread here below is a shredder
Its a tax evader tears apart people and paper

One ******* on the roof looks to the ******* on the floor
Profits through a glass roof raining shards onto the floor
"Stop It" "It Hurts" "Where's the Proof" "Here's the Door"

No money, no ***, just drugs
So funny, so psychedelic, just dregs
Get money, get ***, just a wallstreet ****

******* if you don't care ******* if you don't believe it
***** to be you below getting ****** and no one gives a ****
***** to be you above ******* without consent, leave a cheap tip

My feelings made me sick
So I puked out my heart
Shudder to a click an swipe

At a twilight height with a swisher lit
Good things in every hit best to forget
Every night its the same old ****

Old flames, dust to dust ash to ash
***** that if I had more cash
Our love had a chance to last

That's the past its best to forget
Lose it between every hit
And fade into my regret

Our generation is somewhat infertile
Cause its hard to **** amongst ****'n bile

My brain was ripped from my head
And all of my legends are ******* dead
Every day is just hollowed out dread
While me and my friends bleed
Parents sowed some bad seed
But ******* I got mines the creed

So I take my abandonment issues and shove it
Said I was free at least but I die if I miss a shift
And if I **** a **** then in half these states thats it
If I don't fit in then on the streets I'll get left
So maybe they say I'm not a slave but if the glove fits
I feel sick and I'm one day from making these tiles slick

One bad day from losing everything I got
It's not hard work its not skill its ******* slots
So run it fast and hope your lucks running hot

I got bags under my eyes
Awake but I'm tired
Stop calling me wise
All I am is expired
I've stopped chasing highs
I only do what is required

Is this whats called an honest life
To live bereft of passion within reason
I've stopped carrying a knife
Live within the bounds of demons
I've reached my own half-life
As struggle lessens sins deepen

Sink into skin pocks an permanent marks
No more broken locks and empty pockets
Just work and later nights
To be broke with empty sockets
No jokes no more laughs
What a joke living for profits

President wants us dead for the bottom line
Maybe after its over they might give him a fine
More like he'll get paid and it'll get called fine
Every rotten thing I thought of this home of mine

Confirmed by massive stock dumps at the onset
Could have saved a thousand lives instead get
To make a death cult worshiping  the market
Divided on whether our lives are worth it

Government is arguing on if they should **** the poor
Cause they aren't making enough millions this quarter
Trying to push the death toll even higher
Nothing changed, seeing its just easier

Bloodshed of decades propagated by us
Bloodshed instigated by our vote in the U.S.
Now the murderous ignorance will hurt us
Uneducated voters and idle people of the U.S.

Blood of the poor who cant get healthcare
Blood of the third world to small for care
Lives ruined for capital and power ever year
Lives ruined for capital today its so near

Ice rinks filled with corpses are the price
Sweat shops and misery are the price
Ghettos and brutality are the price
A world burning to ash is the price

For our gross negligence these are the costs
For our uneducated country lives are lost
For a red cult once again America could be lost
A new red scare more insidious than the last

People support elephants as they get crushed underfoot
They loathe they're constituents willing to make any cut
Cut education, cut healthcare, but the always get their cut
excised the experts, gutted the cdc, its so clear ******* cut

Who is rotting the body why is this body failing
Maybe its all those cuts amputating everything
Maybe its the glut of wealth stopping blood flowing
Maybe its the suicidal gasping and grasping

Always reaching for the wealth and power
Rabidly wanting higher, higher, higher
When 99.99% of ******* fall lower
And the .001% stand on corpses piling higher

And all I can do is sit quarantined and vent my anger

everyone at a distance
Dead moths in the lens
Everyone loves to pretend
but thats just a pretense
Lithium lights are our friends
Helium heights chemical highs
everybody lies nobody cries
So get ****** take flight
Go get money every night
keep chasing bright lights
Feel the heat in signs
And be burnt by the times
over ashes they shine
Many are dead by thirtynine
Oh well guess we're doing fine
we made it, we touched it, we died

The gold and quicksilver flow upriver
Cold metal acts like water and shimmers
Amalgams come out in slivers, solid no quiver
Seepin into drinkin supply taintin livers
Curin life within daily doses part from life like moses
No one wants it, but strange forces have their enforcers
Pinkerton police, business moguls, and media sorcerers
While you curl up on your comforter
Meandering over boo hoos, poor me
Cant afford to treat your dying grandmother
Pressure creeps on your back, feeling smothered?
Smother her or lose your future

Guilty of survival
on the bullet's arrival

Man shut the **** up with that bible

Nothing holy found in a meaningless death
Nothing gained nothing lost just lost his breath

Nobody ever cherished he,
meant nothing to me

Never meant anything to the family

They say the whole world can be seen in a grain of sand
Well the whole world can be lost for the gram and a band

**** got me lyin
in my own brain

Thoughts of shame and ****** pain

Watch the time flow through my scarred hands
The clock tickin life lost in front of claspin hands

Pray away the pain
leave the needy in the rain

Pray rather than give a *******

**** empty words in the pulpit
Preachers speakin to the rats

Skittering scared masses
gather en mass

For their weekly holy masse

To hide from the sights in the front
The cyanide in a cup from tainted font

Self idealisation  
adulation congratulation

Nothing real no action no salvation

Burnin the minorities on crosses
Holy ethnic cleansing in the mosques

Killers deserve forgiveness
****** deserve forgiveness

But man takes **** and deserves pain relentless

Its a facade a coping mechanism
Lies to fade away the pain in realism

Fundies is colloquial
a term for the mentally ill

Sundays the ***** hit a sleeping pill

Manson family with some Boko Haram just contemporaries
Hands-on oppression and manipulation it barely varies

Historic faults ignored
easily overlooked

None holier than thou got addicts hooked

Hide actions with words and rhetoric
Form factions and division so reverent

Be just and holy
treat others kindly

Do what we say in the majority, **** the minority

How you doing are you feeling content?
No? Then just consume more content
Watch a show listen to a song
Get the popcorn tune in turn on
Everything is dark, the night is long

So just consume to the tune of a pop star
Your home is your tomb so get a car
And if that's not enough get four more
Happiness in jars sold at your local megastore
How long can I ignore my problems, maybe forever

Everyday devour the stars eat from palms of liars
We're all stars in a play and our stage is on fire
Over each other we climb up higher
Wonder how far you gotta to not get burned
How much can you buy how much have you earned

Enjoy the view of ones and zeros
Live vicariously through fake heros
Eat up your feed till its all you know
What did you see how was the show
Did you forget your all alone now

No? Then just consume till your bloated
The void remains unfilled and the colors are faded
Always so impatient have you waited
Time has been traded to the machine you did your part
In return it ripped out your heart

Every purchase almost feels like your really alive
Things to chase almost like a purpose to live
All of it to feel as if death isn't at your side
To hide from the fact that if you stop then you've died
So purchase, consume, eat up the happy lies

Live vicariously through heros who never lived
Watch villains make sport of mocking our lives
Look at your feeds watch as they water seeds
That decide our needs, Versace and Thneeds
We're in a sea of ads and digital goods

Look at all your things your heart almost beats
Are you feeling happy are you content?
Do you need more content?
We're all happy to sell anything or something
So we can buy something or anything

I'm a demon yeah I'm an angel with a gun
Not dreaming the enemy already won
Fighting back is just screaming at the sun
Fighting back while they scream at the son
Losing track as sky's turn black we're undone

Losing my head at the chopping block
Tick tock as my head rolls across the clock

I want drip I want drugs I want to burn away in the night
My mind slips ash in my lungs don't know who to fight
Wind down wind me up nothing ever goes right
Crucify the righteous and expect survivors to live righteous
Our leaders the kings of capital know were cattle

Coast across the rapids of life
Avoid all the struggle and strife
People and problems cut by a knife
Excised them from my life

No problems left in my wake
No people left when I wake
All alone for eases sake
The easy ride is all I take

In between life and death
Taking breath after breath

In the pursuit of happiness
Looks like your coming in last
Watch it's all gone in a flash
Lost in hopelessness and selflessness

You ******* martyr drowned in the water
As the dollar falters at the behest of father
Killing the winner to entertain the losers
He was colder and crueler but lacked numbers

Can't hold anymore lost it all at quarter four
Shorter and shorter every day must be a chore
Loss of billions them billions more
Jump from a roof its the only cure

You broker ****** deserve this and so much more
Revenge from the poor whom you ripped and tore
Tears rain as we use your firms ploys, hit at the core
Fears reign as balances come in red like so much gore

"News"
How fun is it to stay inside your cage
Reading a script from the given page
Rot away or receive your wage
Feed off the rust and **** slave

"Factory Floors"
Wave away H2S as I asphyxiate  
Corpse still strung on by opiates
Strung out to facilitate production
Combustion, institutions, and human waste

"Hedgerows"
Trained to work tenderize the pork
Worlds burning on its axis they call that winning
Champagne uncorked to celebrate burnt pitchforks
Worlds spinning on averages call that living

"Holders"
Hate and madness marches on the enemy
The friendless say that that's a friend to me
Pain holds hands with misery forms a circle
Maintain and enter me to continue the cycle

"Paper Hands"
If you lose your will to fight then fall from the fire light
Pitch black abyss or pure white emptiness both lack sight
To and forth I vacillate from deep black to blinding light
I reject it and accept it because neither is right

"Diamonds"
Pop there goes your whole stock
The worlds leaking from its locks
As you try to cannibalize your flock
Not wolves your mocked by the sheep

Punks who don't respect the past
Goths sitting in the back of the class
Gangsters burning up fast
**** of society
Scared of the sight of we
Be dead in a week
Left behind
Rockabillys dead behind the shed
Hippys fed full of lead
Yippys buried in sand
No living in this land
Till you follow the man
Chase freedom if you can

Lights I need some light
Light I need a light
Born Bright now dim
Burn Bright till dumb

One dollar to my name and I need a million or more
**** this collar its all the same the boss gets the score
While I act like a ***** for a dollar and stay poor
I welcome death at my door I'm hollow to the core

Hollow to the core longing for nevermore
Empty eyes they've been dry for a year or more
My heart is sore and still life takes more and more
Only option only path my only choice is to end, or...

Struggle to survive walk on and act like I'm really alive
Yeah, like I'm really alive aimless I've missed the time
It's like these rhymes I make they wander listless across the line
Maybe me and my suicidal friends are just a sign of the times

Anti depressants like water and **** like the air we breathe
Loss is always what comes after seeds are planted in earth
Reap the young **** us cause the old have need for wealth
Can't breath buried by bills tossed away if we lose our health

Looking at my till with more cash than I'll ever have
Breaking my will patch it with the stash in the cave
Work till the day I die I know for sure I am a slave
Misery is sold cheap these days its the new wave

Drowning, breaking hearts, while the markets break the chart
I mourn the loss of innocence while I commit evil just to eat
Criminal thief and dealer but I always made that rent
I grow colder my veins icy all the way to the heart

Nowadays I invest in blackrock even as they steal the future
To poor to not play the stocks heal finances like ***** sutures
But its more like I'm locked in stocks while wealth laughs at my fears
If I don't succeed than I can only hope my face will be graced by tears
Only twenty three and I feel the depth of years

Meet me by the midnight sea
Where black waves crash over me
Burn your olive trees
Scatter salt and seed
Not what you need
It's who you want to be

Oil slick down the wireline
Cash sent down a pipeline
Downtown tick tock in time
doing fine, doin just fine
My life is just fine
Ran the stop sign

Smell the burnt rubber
Hit by the brunt of lost lovers
Real shaker and mover
Ever go still die in a gutter
Inhaling exhaust shake from the fear
No outrunning the past its already here

The future isn't real only imagined
But so sure I was that in its name I sinned
Hate when people ask where have you been
I've been busy far away dying inside
I lie and say it's nothing much I've seen
I won't fail, I'll save us all, I lied

Stopped wearing a watch cause I only waste my time
Now watch as I drop line after aimless line
Meandered and squandered all of my time
After all the wandering and wondering I missed the sign
So I'm driving past the state line
Just hoping everything will be fine

Narcotics are often very therapeutic
Tonics, the prescribed chronic do the trick
Unplatonic love for the sick sold by a doctorate

Emotions are the aperture
To anger then something fainter
Diplo emotions I'm bipolar
Heavy smoker, the chain toker
Draw slow its a nail puller
Faster the energetic sinner

Manifesto says never be vulnerable
And if you move blow don't touch the snow
Die young attain oblivion or grow venerable
Who knows how it will go in a show full of wacko's
At Del Taco and the cheese an grease is delectable
Pupils dilate and I speak in tongues, unintelligible

New genesis says the end is nigh
Wretched stoner I stay high
As the crow flys a mile from goodbye
You'll live a long life and enjoy
Sorry, I lied its all strife and you're a toy

Gods playing with action figures
Without any batman just jokers
******* and hookers
***** films they entertain
Suspect your not really sane
Insane is the common brain

Switching lanes and breaking glass panes
Both have a nice ring both mean the same thing
Won't leave any leftovers once I move through ya
Clipped wings to get angel dust in my coca cola
Bubbles in my veins heart bursts like Clydes
Bonnie weeping over me with a forty five

They made me and now they say they hate me
I'll uproot this whole family tree just wait and see
Roots rotten they took me all the way to the bottom
Branches cracked bleached and forgotten
Youngsters left for dead and misbegotten
And our elders are psychopathic mass murderers

They needed benefits so burn the witch
Creepshow and the freaks march to the trench
Evil smiles gotta glow, geeks eat up every inch
No green miles no water feel the burn in every stitch
Crutch rolled up in the joint smoked then spoke without a point
Such is life another meaningless thing under the sun its quaint

Im still haunted by your embrace
Long after ive forgotten your face
Remember you were all hope and grace

I wonder if your still the same
The brightly burning flame
Do you still obsess over the game?

To ourselves we lie saying its a new beginning
And every-time we cry we see its just a new ending
So its time to finally start pretending
That what we have is a new beginning

Turmoil has yet to spoil the fury
loss isn't the foil to blood boils
It brings my head to a broil
Then round my neck it coils

So I start again this time better
Keep myself up to the letter
Scars hidden under a sweater
And I've never felt better

Better than being dead
Better with some dread
Met her stole trust from my head
Now my heart has to be spoon fed

Lobotomized by a lie
Internalized as mine
Things will be fine
Fine in its own time

Pigs hunt us for sport
Then get awards from court
Judge and pork are cohorts
Victims to villains that's how they sort
Was it a gun or drugs put on the report

Kids dead and the feds said he deserved to be bled
Now a hole in his head and parents filled with dread
Murderers stalk the street they'll find you in bed
Watch where you tread listen to orders still your dead
Made no moves, Hands up, then your blood is shed

Now people protest the wrongs they write
Civil unrest, follow your psalms do whats right
If you can't see the plight then you've lost your sight
To be quiet is to support the violence in the night
Justice is worth the fight now, don't wait for hindsight

Media making enemy's out of friends
Bigotry, blacks against the whites
Plant the crack, give people a ***** sight
Now the injustice is looking alright
More ******* on news coming at eight

Trust your own gut go figure out what's what
Check your source cause events are never clear cut
Make sure you don't believe something stupid as ****
An example, thought blank was a gun, that's a cover up
Stay the course of the righteous never let fear shut you up

It may be hard to breath or to hold onto sanity
As the fires seethe and the jury makes claims of guilty
Hard to eat while fury builds within the family
Just stay on your feet remember you got the whole city
Don't worry the streets know whose really guilty

Money, can buy me anything
But if I had to name just one thing
It would have to be nothing

Some say love is all you can want
But all it ever left me was a haunt
A broken heart shriveled and gaunt

Maybe friends can make me smile
But they never want to stay awhile
Here one day gone in a mile

Clearly its as clear as the clear sky in my smog covered city
Quickly step lightly grip it tightly gotta always be ready

Down an alley watchin for the rabid dog
Drifters drown in an alley hidden in fog

People drift swayin side to side
Pigs adrift bayin outside

People chasin the dragon slide to slide
Pigs watch the slides off to the sides

Everyone just here for the moment a short ride
Haven't realized the dream done gone and died

Shot dead by the justices and those above us
Law said to trust us dreams are dangerous

So scramble for bread don't lose your head
Don't look ahead, eyes closed or they behead

Feed drips slow, starving animals cant grow
A seed is sown then grown, stolen by the crow

Up above lookin down on any below
And we all keepin it on the down low

Stolen dreams, stolen future, broken peasants
Takin dreams and future, life is so pleasant

For the top floor residents
For the criminal president

Knowin there is no consequence for the kings
Slap the hands and for prominence, the bars swing

Fossils rule the world
Oil and fuel do as they're told
eighty years old tell the young to fold

Used to be a touted genius
The lies were intravenous
Then I learned to speak
And the foundations creaked
My role in the system grew weak
So sorry, guess I was just a freak
Announced me as a inconvenience
When sleepless I submitted my thesis

They brought me to my knees, so
Fought with all of my friends
Now I don't got any of them

But I'd rather be alone
So I hung up my phone
I do my best on my own

I'm doing the best I can
On my own I still stand
And I've got a plan

When the stars touchdown
Let's see how much I've grown
Because I've always known

I do the best when I'm on my own
It's okay who needed them anyway
Nothing to say I will walk on my own

Dreams tainted by the course of age
I've acted like the prince but stood as a page
Thought my rage was past tense but I don't change

Expectations of respect but I'm not royalty
And I still stand with all my hate and loyalty
Sleeping soundly and when I wake its regrettably

My waking life is spent as a constant
Eyes closed with dark bags tired my countenance
A need to be a man of substance, a brain with content

It drives me to escape and sleep all day long
Life on my word the path of pain where have I gone
Burn in the night to escape the change will never come

Always I seek the validation of respect
Only break is sleep some stolen moments
Born poor and envious my life is one I reject

Heart beats in indigo even as it lets go
Dark and bruised still I will always grow
No need for an escrow when I rest it all goes

Soft flesh an brittle bones or solid steel with copper wire
Failing gristle, mushy brain or slick oil with combustion fire
Walkin legs overtaken when tarmac gets hit by tires
Eisenstein surpassed by a TI-84's processing power
Humans expire, a robots life can be forever
Mortal morals never bother a mechanical processor
The worlds owner could be either which would you rather

bullets out in the thunderdome
five five send bullets at your dome
glock glock shots **** ya in your home
nine one one callin from a payphone
Someone pay for the dial tone

So if any one has problems with me
I take care of them I keep the peace
Don't need the ******* police
Don't need more dead bodies
Blue boy gang stay out the lobby

Besides don't you got a starving kid to arrest
In aisles shoplifting a box of chex mix
Put in slammers for feeding himself
Throw someones life away like kleen ex
Dead to society life of the ex convict

Lost it all, coulda avoided it for 3.50
But they need cell fillers cant be left empty
Cuz slavery is the cornerstone of american currency
Tell me would you fight to end slavery?
Or lie to yourself and say slaves are the enemy

If this society collapses thats fine by me
I would rather live in a land thats free
Than one where people swing from trees

****-en my brain cells, in the moonlight
Lost-em with Jane, in the fire light

No thought to evolution or gods
No more solutions or fighting odds

Not gonna ask why don't care who
My only reply to life is ******* too

Path to follow its paved in rust beneath is hollow
Many fell below turned to dust that's hard to swallow
It's follow or bust though so where will they go
Head off the pillow rest not a must time is shallow

Leaders after success, not yours not mine just theirs
Others suffer to cater at a dime serve wine without a share
Career servants without time tearing out their hair
Fair is never what comes near the life of a waiter

Family members, team players, sacrificed at the altar
Never allowed to falter the atmosphere grows hotter
Grease and sweat drip off wage workers
Sickness, death, and age as they grow older

Nothing to account for no money
Nothing to amount to no property
Nothing to surmount except poverty
Nothing but a body-count for inequality

Every day reaching out to green lights in the bay
Everyone says let it go preach about giving it away
Flashing lights I need you to shine down today
Could live if I grasped even a single ray
That would be enough to make it through the day

Like police hound dogs diggin up dirt
Breakin ground, pigs investigatin perps
****** hands communicatin my flirtin
Death my mistress her fat *** flauntin
Backseat body of a rat with no brain
Plastic blanky keep out a ****** stain

No stressin cuz this is an insoluble coppers caper
The evidence insubstantial cause improbable no paper
Trails lead nowhere 21st century jack wheres the ripper
Case put to bed, outta here, Marth hit em with the tipper
Cold lead, cold case, acid laced body lie in lye face melter

Shadowy alleys Sirius Black disappear in dark smoke
In the valley all serious never laughs like a bad joke
Anotha body add to the tally dead how they woke
Harry with the kedavra another cadaver in my ice box
Somebody actin funny call me make a runny neck +

Crimes stackin Jack Sparrow with the dirt
Moses with the staff I make rivers part
Stiletto in hand now your kidney hurt
Cop car chasin in circles never closer, roundabout
Tooth fairy molar pullin to messy burned my shirt
Villain of the story big bad wolf eatin your heart

dollar earned only a dollar made when its a dollar saved
baller blinged out to holler about dollars he's still a slave
company store takes payments at four just your soul and more
many march in tour of golden doors as debts reach from a dirt floor
chasing the four door you can't afford its the debtors reward

dollar earned turns to dollar spent
when did life turn into making rent
was it while the middle sat on a picket fence
it came so subtle as we all drowned in media
seemed so helpful like a pound in the city

lock up your problems and show no pity
thats how they solve em out in the city
that or send them to a mortuary
words seem so incendiary these days
burning citys as life sets the people ablaze

burn a hole in your pocket to get laid
what's left when the ****** fades
pantyless and penniless riding waves
hoes and jesus since times medieval
both have kneeled to escape evil

crime is just a high risk job kinda like flipping burgers
time shows both ending without any futures
so excuse the hard worker whose turned to dope dealer
I know time is the best healer but it won't fix this
only fix I need is cash on cash in bank thats swiss

thats a low tax on racks so none of it reaches you
a million ways to hide millions from the millions that make do
charity tax breaks in the collection plate let the money accrue
get a wife thats foreign thats a tax break if your american
new legislation to make sure the middle an poor don't win again

poverty makes a child into a survivor
wealth makes a child into a toddler
prince rules over the pauper
for the price of a few cents
still the prince can't afford sense

maybe for a dollar some of mine could be lent
advisors with white collars must seem heaven sent
till someone wonders where the money went
white collar or black mask only difference opportunity
go live in a parking lot for a week if you don't believe me

Spread it everywhere this disease
Make friends with care my release
Dopamine is starting to cease
So like frayed twine snap and release

Friendships made to fill my heart
Void fillers made of broken parts
So dumb yet I must be smart
To get these people filed in my heart

Never enough companionship
I'm addicted to a disease called friendship
Extrovert is just addiction to lips
Speaking to ignore loss with a quip

Friendlists for miles
Start and spark my smile
If I'm important to them
I'm important then

Enough to ignore holes in my head
Lobotomized I think like I'm dead
Repressed emotion and dread
Just ignore the stupid **** I said

Ramblin for miles then quiet for awhile
Thats just my style spacing out lookin at tile
Jovial all the while looking like I'm on trial
A laugh is the only time I'll smile

Losing touch so I make a new friend
Just looking to make my own pain end
Using people like they're money to spend
I pretend the pain will end with the next friend

But a void cant be filled it just takes more and more
To get dopamine in my head I need more and more
So I try not to be a bore or make others too sore
When lookin to gather parts for my busted core
Always goin towards  that next score

Theres only horns on the unborn
Demons living without existing
Skin is torn round their form
Sermons praying to stop forming

Walk without purpose whats it about
Never waver on my path to nowhere
Talk about disservice and about clout
Whether I last going onward only forward

It's not a question of will or right
Just a question of pills and sight
Placebos mixed with my life
Spells and hexes
Hide and provide
Give light or life
Heart and a knife
Cant part with the night

Never be reborn eternal within a storm
The fire and burns keep me warm

Citizens everyone of us
Future of business in the class
Passionless, as I pass into the middle class
Fall in line with all the rest

Boss said its time too get paid
Ghost say its best to learn a trade
Make a nest and live as a slave
Only alternative is an early grave

Citizens everyone of us
Irons and gears in our rust
Leaders that make the devil blush
Under foot the meek feel the crush

Decay on the highrises death before our irises
Ashes make me say less make me feel blessed
Blindsided by the crash burning up to fix it
Strings of violence chasing after finances

Small towns raised from dirt left to the curb
Suburbs running from filth is what I deserve
Moneys the only master left to serve
Reach out and grab it if you got the nerve

We talked the other day you said you wanted to die
Even if its what you want I'd rather you be okay
Just going day by day
Sleeping, spending, nothing to say
Bingeing, barely breathing, letting threads fray
I ask hows it going you say you feel empty
Its relatabley the same I wish what I wished for me
I wished someone would save me
Never prayed but twice I was on my knees
Once to ask for anything set my life free
Once to ask the same for every friend of me
No reply, now just hope you don't become an amputee
Not like me, living without a guarantee
Stay surrounded by people that want you happy
A new year to go towards your own family
And one day relax as a retiree
Even if its a grim reality
And a ****** country
There's more in life to see

Say I'm unambitious but I just wanna be rich
Wanna feel something before I'm left in a ditch
A pure love nestled in my heart but life's a *****
So long since I was able to feel a tender touch

My stony heart lacks the sense of feeling
Barely call its beating a state of being
Clay in the shape of a man pretending
That what it does is really living

Forget and live
Regret to relive
Memory's are lazy
And the past is hazy

Years lost in a sigh
Who even was I
Just some guy
Lost in the lie

Boot straps pullin
Noose won't loosen
Round the throat chokin
Bout to make a killin

Written off cause of the things they said
Locked away put your all back to bed
Heart tucked back under sleeve and thread
Words mean more than actions when someone trusts them
It's swords hidden behind fashion each word thrusts you into sin
Ask where you been what you've seen then cut you off before you begin

Judged by the most evil of thoughts left in a cell to rot
Truth and law never matter when both get bought
At least that's what the accuser thought
Play the games your never taught that's your lot
Never get lost in someone else's thoughts
Don't get caught in the ink and the blots

Drinkin vino toast "finito"
Did it ever start though
Brain aches so slow
Down the flow
More wine now

Rolling grape ape burn a jay
Feeling clouds so high I pray
At the void to just stay away
White noise is the everyday
So soon its almost may

Twenty two years three without fear
Even still death feels so near
Melancholy life consuming cheer
Burn it,, drink it, just to feel tears
Raise a glass and toast "cheers"

******, ******
Just orders, protect borders
Justice and order, Fixers and sorters
Guts on a camcorder
**** out if you can afford her
**** hotels for the soldiers
Taped and stored in federal folders
Holes in daughters
Blood and *** drips as you hold her
Got questions, torture and water boarders
Doers, leaders, fuhrers
Child soldier bullets go pitter patter, splatter    
Colonial slavers are the industry pavers
Acceptable loss, lawyers and waivers
Watch or ignore it with entertainers
Silver screen lives and liars
Fired and dead reporters
****** in the mortar
So **** your leaders
Or live in hell forever