Your body, your mind, heart and soul,
All combined, set a goal
To start today; no better time
If you really want this
You need to strive. Work for your goals,
Work as hard as you can
Staying focused, you need a plan

You're pushed to your limits;
That's what you think. You can reach it,
You just need to believe.
Believe in yourself, have some faith,
I know it's not easy
Make no mistake, comes from within
This new strength you shall find,
Conquer your goals, body and mind.



© Karen L Hamilton, 2013

You always make me do this, you know?
I don’t ever give a **** if anyone responds to me,
but whenever you stop talking to me I get so frustrated.
It’s like I have to remind you of my presence,
Everyone else remembers me with vivid clarity.
But you don’t,
It’s like you’re looking at me through the bottom of a soda bottle
And then you forget what you’re looking at and stop caring.
Maybe you are the one who turned me into a poet and made me miss people.
Because you offer to come see me
Or you send me a message
And then you never say anything else
And I send you message after message with no response.
And then I cry,
And get angry,
And get furious,
And then I write.
Then I want to be drunk,
So drunk I won’t remember who you are.
So drunk I start to look at you from the bottom of my bottle of whiskey.
So drunk I won’t feel bad sending you the seven messages I’ve already sent you with no answer.
I think you may have a girlfriend,
So I hope you don’t come to town.
Because if you come and sit down to have coffee with me
You probably won’t leave until you have my tears or my love bites,
And if you have a girlfriend I don’t want you to have either.
I’m not sure if you’re real,
Because I’m beginning to realize we are both looking at each other
From the bottoms of bottles.

my eyes were feverish and my head, it spun
i was almost delirious due to the pain in my abdomen
the frost of winter and the ice in my heart
slowly, slowly they tore me apart.
fragile and tortured, i lay in bed
the thoughts of you running through my head
and as the Morning Light entered through a break in the curtain
i felt your arms wrap around me to stop the hurting
your breath on my neck seemed to melt me inside
i let the tears flow, i didn't have to hide
you whispered to me darling i'll never let you go
just feel better, i'm here, you're not alone
rest your weary head on my chest and just breathe
darling i'll stay with you as long as you need
forever i whispered forever remain
you're the only one who can take away the pain
forever you whispered forever i'll stay
without me you'll never have to live a day
sleep a sweet slumber my sweet angel
i'm here now my love, there is no danger
my breathing regulated and your heart beat me a lullaby
and i felt calm, safe and blissful for the first time
i'm not quite sure when i fell asleep
but i fell asleep knowing you were next to me
Morning come, i found myself on a sterile single bed
with beads of a fevered sweat on my forehead
the sheets was made and your scent didn't remain
i asked them why you were no longer there to take away the pain
it's your delusion, child, he was never here
please get him off your mind, my darling dear
your fever it rises with the thoughts of him
you're burning dangerously from the outside in
you'll die if you don't cooperate with us
let go of this illusion of your love
he's long gone or maybe he never existed-
no! i cry *no he did he did!
he loved me he'd never leave me, God forbid
he held me last night as he's held me since the first day
he'd never leave me he'd never go away
it's you in the white coats keeping me so ill
he's my medicine my only way to get well
you're keeping me from him because you want to see me hurt
you cruel cruel men you like to watch me burn
he is not the problem it is you, it is you!
he is my love and my cure it is true, it is true!
but without him this fever won't leave and this pain won't surrender
i'll die! i'll die before the end of this weather!
oh doctor oh doctor give him back to me
oh doctor oh doctor don't keep him from me
oh doctor oh doctor i'll die can't you see
oh lover oh lover return, return to me please

compassion is never compare
one loves and one condones
one can conjure beings and tribes
the other's shoes, always their own

Forty five degrees of reflection
She stands there
It's not a place she want's to be
Told to, and she knows to be still
Yesterday was peaceful
Today she was deceitful
and honesty placed her there
It's not time yet, only 45 minutes
45 minutes to think of what she's done
45 minutes in hopes he'll come
To free her will takes 45 motions
45 devotions of why
She won't do it again
Corner ******
like granite she stands
Frozen while time spans
Frozen with tied hands
45 minutes she has to hold it
4 or 5 cups of water
what torture is this
what lesson learned
10 more minutes added
Her head was turned
The countdown begins
10, 9,8,7,6,
5,4,3,2,1, oh ****
Corner rules she didn't move
Kind of like Simon says
You may go now
was finally said.

When two black wheels crashed into four
Two legs stretched out behind a silver door
He lay, pinned down on the dusty road
Clawing at her face in vain, he choked.

My conscience asks, "What troubles you more?"
"The mask of anger that she wore?
The circle of people watching the show?"