As i fly above angry waves
Dark and deep with my fears
I see my life flash before me
Memory after memory
Lost over the sea of darkness

I know not the path i will go
The wind blows me every which way
I struggle against her breath
When finally i fall into this sea

The darkness swallows me
I am alone
I cannot see
Here my mistakes taunt me
Here they are waiting

I don't aspire
to conquer
it's enough
if I can endure

i tried to drink
my feelings away
until i nearly drowned
but their grief,
patient as a vulture,
kept waiting for me
even at the gates
of the afterlife.

A girl child
when born
to a family

is

either
seen as

a

burden to be
disposed of

or

too precious a treasure
kept hidden for protection

but

not once considered
as a human being.

The weight still lingers, burdens remain.  
Years of giving, silent, unclaimed.  
Not greed, just kindness I implore  
A touch to heal, restore once more.  

Soft hands to soothe this aching tide,  
Yet empty space is what’s supplied.  
The smallest ask, a tender plea,  
Too vast a world to give to me.

one step away from hesitation
doubt loves to hang around

I make an effort
an act of faith

-never knowing
the road ahead

where it will dip and rise
and I alive in Heaven and Hell

sidled to her grief
enquiring of whom she grieved

my wayward life
my disomforted mind

look here my child
my love for you is ever deeper

-deeper than all grief
look upon my wounded side

see the depth of blood
I bleed for you.