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What to do.
What to say.
What to write.
I feel trapped in every way.
Theirs nothing I want to do,
but lay around all day.
It’s my own problem.
But it makes me hate everyone.
I just can’t get up,
but I should.
I guess life’s burnt me out,
and left me to drown.
 5d Arpitha
Yuzuko
Sit and watch over
The silenced, still moonlit lake
waiting to be saved
Like a hat,
That never had a head,
I lay upon a double bed.

A melancholy feeling of loss,
We are the riddles
That we came across.
I’m sorry I grew up.
Sorry the world changed me.
Sorry I can’t be the sun anymore,
but now I know what exists beyond like the darkness; not just light.
I still want you to love me.
But you only do when I give you a stupid hug
I can’t be the same as someone I don’t know,
I can’t just change.
And pretend the pain doesn’t remake me.
I don’t know why you expect me to just lie.
So I’m sorry I grew.
I know you hate me now, I do to.
But we can’t go back.
The past has changed me; I grew.
Mirror mirror
On the wall
Will they love me
After all?

Mirror mirror
On the wall
Will I ever love me
Once and for all.
 6d Arpitha
Kaiden
A quick, (not) painless way
To abandon all of your struggles.
An attempt to feel special, they say,
While in reality it's so much more.

They say only a coward would do it,
But i tried to take the life
Of the child i once were,
And the adult i could become.
So im alive i guess.... I can't really write that well yet but at least I have a boyfriend now so maybe i won't **** myself, i dunno
 Jul 4 Arpitha
alia
I waved at my reflection,
it didn’t wave back.

Just blinked once,
then smirked.

I stepped closer.
It didn’t move.
I asked it,
“Which one of us is real?”

It cracked.
And whispered,
“Not you.”
the story goes
that van gogh would eat yellow paint
in hopes that it would
put happiness inside of him –
probably the same reason
he drank absinthe.

i never understood that level of desperation –
except i painted my fingernails yellow today
in hopes that sunshine
would flow from my fingertips
instead of the torrential downpour
that i’ve made a home out of.

but it only reminds me of van gogh
and new york city
and you –
lots of starry nights

who knew you had the power
to make everything feel so grey in your wake?

if you think about it,
all of us have our own yellow paint –
something we cling to for refuge
even though we know it’s killing us, slowly,
the temporary solace feels worth it
if only for a moment

and you were mine.

- courtney l. p.
the words i never thought
i would have the courage to write
https://courtneylpposts.tumblr.com/
 Jul 2 Arpitha
MDane
Is it me?
is it so hard to see?

My pain, my sorrow
cutting like an arrow.

It wants to show,
to grow, to flow,
but all it can--
is burrow.

Words are spoken,
but they seem broken.
Pieces missing,
but still persisting.

I lay bare.
Only for a puzzled glare.
With every stare,
it gets harder and harder to share.

Maybe hidden is the best way,
for it to fester,
until there's nothing left to say.
Hi, I’m sixteen and trying to get better at writing.
 Jul 2 Arpitha
Brooklyn
I’m tired, but I just can’t sleep.
I’m hungry, but won’t ever eat.
I hate that I’m quiet, but will never speak.
I miss my mom, but wont try to seek.
I hate myself, but am not trying to be better.
What’s wrong with me, why am I letting myself wither.
Is this my life, just reduced to litter?
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