Give me a reason to stay alive
Give me a reason to not take my life tonight.
Give me a reason to not bring out the blades
Or to not shatter that mirror, the cold glass soothes the pain.
Give me a reason to keep holding on
Give me strength I'm not really that strong.
Give me courage to keep carrying on
Give me a reason to keep smiling, acting as if nothing is wrong

It's all on me...
The hurt the pain give it all to me
I'm the vessel that brings joy
Release the toxins although they might destroy..me
Pain in others is what I don't like to see
Although I hide my pain beneath
I still smile so everyone's breathe can be with ease
But in my heart I'm saying please...
Give me the cure to release these toxins
So I can be free from my conscience

I sit here
I peep through the hole of a wall I call a window
As bullets run out
And burgundy fills the streets

My alarm is the sound of
a bullet fired
the **** of a gun
the sound of somebody's son
hitting into the ground
gurgling-
as he tries to speak through blood.

My reality is foreign invaders
trampling on our soil like they made us
Bombs.
Planes flying overhead
This smog is suffocating us

A constant war that sees no end
Just an influx of discarded bodies

I wonder when I will be next.

It's endless
The stress, the strain
The ache
Something or the other.
How many times
Do I  put myself together
Before I completely break.