Anger;
to suppress my sadness
I drive myself into madness
and disguise it
into anger
Laughter;
I try and bestow laughter onto others
to substitute my depression with joy.
I only smile when others
around me smile but in reality im stuck in a void
I’m dying inside... crying inside... hiding inside
Trapped in my mind.... fighting inside
Searching for myself ina rage
Only to find myself ina cell, locked away in a cage
Afraid..
To tame....
This animal, this beast, this serpent
So I masquerade around pretending to be perfect
I mask my emotions and hide my feelings on the surface,
Determined....
To lock away my emotions, to lock away the hurting
Throw away the key and pray no one ever goes searching
What’s my purpose?
Skin is thick on the surface