You used to be my best friend.
You used to be the person I trusted.
Now.
We are back to just how we were.
Strangers.
You told my secrets.
You rip my life apart
You rain destruction on what I protect the most.
Is this what you wanted all these while
I sacrificed so much for you.
Endured all the pain
Stood by your side when everyone deserted you.
I'm shattered.  
I'm giving up.
Because I only exist when you need me.

She looked for love in the backseat of his car
She looked for it in dusty store rooms
In abandoned buildings, the rough palms of hands
She didn't find it in his whispered sweet nothings,
She didn't find it in his apartment building either

He looked for an easy conquer, a one night stand
He looked for an innocent smile, naive doe eyes
He looked for it in needy fingers, hitched breathes,
He found it in her hair balled up in his fist
He found it in her salty skin, her soft thighs

She was looking for love in all the wrong places

~

For this I see before my eyes
The dreams of lasting place
Alone I find the images
The smile upon your face

In darkness there is but a light
A shimmering I see
For when I open up my heart
You’re standing there with me

A silence comes though this I hear
The words I find so new
As every time you say to me
My darling I love you

I carry this within my mind
A gift from up above
And loneliness would be my friend
Without your precious love

So deep inside the feelings reign
For wonders you have been
To satisfy my fantasies
And touch my life again

So long the days have counted by
Of endless longing miss
To hold you in my arms once more
To taste your precious kiss

I need to only close my eyes
The dreams so soon to start
I feel the love that you do send
Right here within my heart

The memories of distant times
And those we make anew
Have come back to my life again
I’m so in love with you

~

Some folks want to dig in deep
to find the secrets that I keep
See what it is that makes me tick
What makes me angry, sad, and sick

Some folks want to dig even deeper than that
And they want to deflate me until I am flat
Trying to find some sugar inside
There's nothing but salt, I've already tried

And if people want to try and find my heart
They can keep on trying to tear me apart
But you'll never find beauty inside this pit
It's like searching for gold in piles of ****

I'm a closed book with a million pages
Letting out bits in fits and rages

But I'm a secret

And I'll never tell