Face is going numb
That’s how I know I’m in the right place
For all the wrong reasons
Of course
This isn’t normal
In fact this is unusual
I speak firmly
Trying to express that I know what I want
But actually I’m lost
And need direction
Hoping to find another world
Full of passion and purpose
The longer I linger
The more my responsibilities escape my grasp
But sometimes that’s okay
It normal to want to get away

There are two kinds of people in this world, the kind that get everything they’ve ever wanted and the kind that work hard and live in the dark
I’m feeling loneliest at most
Yep this definitely is depressing, watching cars go by and by
And yet there you are stuck in the same situation as always
Eves dropping, joining into conversations you’re not welcome to
Sipping on a martini, oh no you shouldn’t though, you gotta drive
Home
To where you feel the most emptiest inside

Didn't get a chance to say sorry for the late *** texts last night.

I get a few drinks in me and I start thinking and then want someone to talk to.

I don't talk too often and keep things buried.

If I don't talk about things every so often I hold it all in and explode later.

I don't like exploding.

So thank you for listening and sorry for being an inconvenience

I had a dream the other night,
took a bullet to the head.
These racing thoughts control my mind
thats why I fear laying in bed.

I had a dream the other night,
I took a pill.. or two.
Sent shivers running down my spine
yet somehow, I was thinking of you.

I had a dream the other night,
Trapped and couldn’t move
You looked me straight into the eye
But didn’t bother let me loose.

You made me believe that you were mine
Your presence was my feene.
Then you turned and looked the other way
Except.. this time it wasn’t a dream.

I’m sorry I never seemed to care enough
You gave me nothing but love
Maybe I was scared,
Scared of what it was.

I know I wasn’t just a complete wreck,
You always showed me through your smile
If only we could just go back in time
I might just have you for a while.

Thank you so much for all the precious moments,
For those I could never pay you back.
And for never giving up on me
It was I who changed all that.

I’m sorry you wrecked your car that night
You made sure I was safe and sound
I can’t seem to get you off my mind lately
I could only dream to see you around

You treated me like nothing but a queen.
Even tucked me into bed one night,
I just wish you were in my life right now
It hurts to lose you out of sight.

I always try to come off strong and independent
But even you have seen me cry.

I’m so confused with life right now,
So I end up on a plane somehow
Hoping that my scattered thoughts will clear up on their own.