Alice

Alice Mar 2020

When I think of her, nothing compares
She made me strong, and I hope I made her
She made me realise that even if it crash, doesn´t mean it will burn

Funny how we promised eternity, but look at us currently,
I lost a friend.

There was no apology,
There were no tears,
It happened so carefully

Sometimes I wish we never met, other days I feel fortunate,
I lost a friend.

#friend #lost #friendship #her

Alice Jul 2018

in the therapists office

We are not leaving this room
until it´s over,
we are not leaving this room until
we learn to love each other sober,
full of medication and therapy,
we were liers,
only said things that they want us to
feel...

when can we stop pretending mom, when can we tell the truth

#complicated #love #mom #family #lie

Alice Jun 2018

Dear you up there

If I confess you my sin,
would you finally let me in?
Your book say I'm sick,
but your words tell me I'm forgivable.

If I shout "Amen",
would I be a better women?
Your followers say you will send me to hell,
but your words say show compassion.

They say "Prise the Lord!",
but I don't know what for.
I'm still looking for my hallelujah,
maybe I can have faith in you again.

Religon is a hard subject.

#religion #god #belief #confused

Alice Apr 2018

unsent letter

Mom, hi
I just want you to know I passed by.
and..
I did´t knock on your door,
things have changed, do you remember our war?

Mom, how are you?
confused?, yeah me too.
my words usually write down themselves,
this time my pen strikes, and my vocabulary is overwhelmed.

Mom, hi
I just want you to know I passed by.
and..
I did´t knock on your door.
Call me, when you understand you need me to forgive you.

- love, your daughter.

You hurt me.

#mom #family #letter #cry #poem

Alice Apr 2018

black lungs and pressure

I find similarities,
between society and cigarettes;
filtered and poisonous,
deadly, but yet so hard to quit and leave,
addictive.

#similarities #cigarettes #society

Alice Apr 2018

I´m guilty

sirens,
he called them
on my mom.

knife,
she pointed it
at my dad.

screamed,
as loud as I could
at the people taking me.

home,
was ruined
and I feel the blame.

#home #family #past #hurt #violence #guilt

Alice Apr 2018

atheist who lost everything

Religion
take me under your power,
because I need something to believe in.

Sometimes, I wish I was religious. It seems nice.

#religion #hope