My heart is in pieces.
It’s crumbling.
My heart is in pieces.
It’s shattering
as if it were glass thrown against the ground,
as if it were a fine china that had been beat by a hammer.
It feels like it can never be put back together.

I
Need
Human
Companionship

Dear Summer,
        
Where are you?
I know you have barely begun
But I cannot see you
All I can see is white clouds all the way to the horizon
Not even a patch of blue sky
Among all the endless grey
It seems that ’dull white’
has quickly become the only time of day
other than night
Where are you?

I love you,
but I don’t want to.
Although your beauty is beyond compare
there is a pain
as sharp as a knife
in knowing that what I desire
is not something I can ever hold,
that what I want
is that which you despise.
So I am already
over you.

And though you feel like
you have been handed a grenade
with the pin pulled out,
you don’t know that I plan to jump on it
and take all the shrapnel and metal for you
so there is no need to worry, darling,
I am already
over you.