I've defiled my body
and my bed.
handcuffed my heart.
seduced my head.

I've commited acts
that have tainted me internally
but I clean up nice
my dirt you don't see.


I don't want this addiction any more
stopping is tough,
Detox, I must!!!
Ive had enough.

I've danced with the devil for far too long.
ive learned the lyrics to all his songs.
meanwhile my desire for good has gone.
and my debt to Jesus has grown.
How could I be so foolish?
Why must I be so wrong?

Do not cry
                  when I die.

Truth is I have been dead
the only life left was in my head

my heart tapped out a long time ago,
this world was not for me,  I had to go

Love, Life, and Happiness
is something I would never know

that black broken hearted baby from the ghetto
                     never could *grow

sometimes......................
I take one too
many
pills

because I don't want to think.

I don't need to feel.

Rain are my tears
so many prayers
for so many years
Heavens water capacity
overfilled,
God sends them to me,
as a reminder and gift
in hopes that I heal.

That Heaven is for real