My body yearns to die,
but my mind strives to live.
My heart wants to hate,
but only knows love.
My eyes want to close forever,
but are clearly wide open.
My hands want to ****,
but are merely a loving touch.
My lips want to poison,
but only know a gentle kiss.
My lungs don't want to inhale,
but haven't stopped yet.
If I wanted any of this,it'd already of been said & done.
Love me for the person I am & the choices I make.
Because I love you enough to make this run.


Crystal Rose.
5/29/09
5:45pm


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We all can love and care about another as much as our heart* will allow; but when the people we love or care about does not feel the same... it  leaves us all alone with the feelings we STILL have for those people.  At a dead end, with no answer or directions on which way to turn.
                         It's always been an ugly truth that our heart's* wanted to hide from.
             Our heart* already knows the pain that it's about to endure... everyone was born with that.
         Our heart's* know instinctively to sense the emotional feelings from the other person or persons involved... whether we know it yet or not...  rejection is soon to come...
   Most people blow off the feeling of their heart* being swallowed by their stomach when something is gonna hurt their emotional state & somehow that percentage of people make it transparent to their every sense for the rest of their lives; Just so they can have control over the way they feel... still ignoring the fact that they're wasting precious time in their life... when they could be using those senses to wait for the right feeling to come along...
    We hurt ourselves even more by denying that feeling from ourselves; over and over again... running into the same thing; the same feeling of being sad, the feeling of broken heartedness, the same emptiness & loneliness.... over and over again, wondering when the cycle will break.
    In the long run though... after running around and receiving all that heartache and love-dump... we eventually end up sitting all alone contemplating... wondering what happened... and finally it dawns on us... we knew something would go wrong before it even ever did, because of that weird feeling our heart had that we'd ignored. Never ignore something that comes to you so naturally... that's what separates the best from the rest.
      ~Fresh off the Cut on~
              ~07/08/14~
        ~From The Mind of...~
            ~Crystal Rose~
  
=the brain----- a heart can't truly sense anything but blood pumping thru... the brain is what links these emotions to our mind and body and makes it feel like we're sick from our attached feelings of attraction being rejected.

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I explode for you,
will you explode for me??
A desperate me longing,
your proud release of love in me.
I love your desperate lies,
longing me as I do you.
Please do me like it is,
Messy fate.
I explode for you...


Crystal Rose.
8/17/10
1:23am


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I enter the light that's in my mind,
I search and search,
If only you I could find.
I know when you look down upon me,
You see the pain & strife in me.
Why does it hurt me so?
When we lost you 10 years ago??
I search and I search,
In my dreams...
But it's never you I see.
This love is slowly killing me.

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♥Crystal Rose♥

I've made up my mind,
It's too late to change it, so just be kind.
You just don't understand why,
You must be blind.
Why can't you just accept me?
If I died would I be one to miss?
Do you care for me?
Then leave me the **** alone.
I can't take your negative ****,
Just know, too much and I'll die.
So just accept me as I am and wish me luck,
Shut your mouths & keep my name out your minds.
I love me & that's enough,
Be like you always have & don't give a ****.
You can hate me or love me... whatever's clever,
But always know that i'll love you all forever.

Updated,
04-13-2014
♥Crystal Rose.♥
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I hold you in my arms too tight,and you will slip away.
I hold you in my arms quite loose,and with me you will stay.
I know not what things to do,to keep receiving love from you.
I know one day you will see,just how much you mean to me.
My heart is locked very tightly,but only you my love have got the key.
I want to see true love in your eyes,because I can't keep accepting lies.
I can't think because I'll cry,wishing it were with you that I lie.
I love you so much,Can't you see??
I just wish you felt the same for me.
No one knows this feeling but me,and inside I shed tears,like leaves from a tree.


Crystal Rose.
   3/10/13
   10:23pm

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I know you've been through some crazy things.
Your life is too ****** up it seems.
Outside you don't show any sadness or pain,
But when I look in your eyes it's not the same.
I want to be there for you through thick & thin.
To make sure you don't keep getting hurt again.
You aren't the only one with a ****** up life,
But you keep your cool & don't go for a knife.
I will be here forever until the end of time.
And, against you I will never commit any crime.
I've got a love & understanding burning deep inside for you.
And that love & understanding will always stay pure & true.
So unknowingly accept the love that I give.
Because you will be loved as long as I live.


Crystal Rose.
   9/10/01
   11:48pm

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I've gone down because I'm so jaded.
why the **** must I be so faded??
You look in my eyes & see nothing but fear.
So why not listen as I shed a tear??
Because of you I am who I am,
I say what I want & do what I can.
This world really is a ****** up place.
You can't walk on without seeing a sad face.
All we need is one more war.
Makes me wish the president was Gore.
We can't go one second without talking ****.
It's always something or someone, who got hit??
I wish I could express how I feel.
I just want this nightmare to not be real.


Crystal Rose.
10/6/10


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