The contents may be under pressure
I think to myself
As I lay on this cold floor
Mismatched socks and a pair of gym shorts
One last jab at myself
To replace this fear with humor
the razor gouges my smooth skin
A quiet patter echoed throughout the house
The blood pooling at my thigh
pain slowly drowns away
Like a ship cracked at the hull
There is nothing left to do
But wait
I will not struggle towards the surface
I will not panic in the darkness
As my lungs fill to no return
I leave this cold world
No longer afraid
And no longer hurting
my aching heart rests
As a sun setting along the sea

Graves dug by robots built by man
As these hallways clutter
Air tainted by the breath of disease
Crashing rays of light shatter my thoughts
To love you
As another holds your hand
Give me this future you promised me
Amongst the chaos and pain
These imaginary voices control my life
Scripting when to bath and when to die
To void this re-entry ticket into life
Hurricanes crash as birds fail to fly
Hearts will stop and these cells will die
Actors run off script to tell us lies
Beneath melting ice of the unknown
Show us beauty yet spare us fate
As these flowers fail to blossom
Give us more time
To fix our mistakes

The way I fold my receipt after checking out
The song I turn to on my last rep
The reason I'm on season 6 episode 9
Why I pull the cookies out 3 min early
Why I still use a body pillow
Why I try to floss
The shoes I wear
The food I eat
The tears that flow
The heart that aches
The sadness that followed after you left
The rage I got lost in
The gambling
The drinking
The sobbing
My life

The day is finally here
Bouquets and bow ties
Subtle chatter fills the gardens
out my window
Along with the sweet smell of cheesecakes
Sifting down the halls of the Ahwahnee
My dearest
I fail to hold your overflowing heart
Spilling starboard of these shaking seas
The bow holds stern
Along course amongst the laughter
And tears of those we send away
Spring clouds pirouette with the sun
Illuminating numerous fawn
With their gallant temperament

I love you

Glistening grass embodies the beauty
And nature of these woods
Towering mountains protect the chaos
Within our souls
Fresh dew glides the scape
Promising of new life to come

I love you so dearly

Stiffened suits mask soft bodies
As we make our way to the grand hall
Echoing excitement boasts beyond the trees
Yet as you enter
My heart is all that is heard
A single kiss to carve our names into Destiny
As one with many
We will prevail all fears
And conquer these mountains
that keep us safe
Together forever seems too simple
With your blanket of love to keep me warm
The illuminating moon
shines upon your cheek so brightly
As if a star pours from your beauty
A bond born on a day of curse
Just as we planned
To tempt those who challenge our love
May we go into this unknown
With hands clasped
And awake as one