kita bahkan bertemu saat mau berpisah,
menggenggam erat sebelum melepaskan,
menyukai sebelum membenci.
puisi ini tidak akan menjawab pertanyaanku.
tapi begitulah sebahagian dari kisah hayatku.
aku bisa menolak saat aku menerima.
aku juga bilang benci saat jatuh cinta.
aku coba menjadi kuat saat aku rapuh.
aku yakin kamu;
yang telah menjatuhkan dan menyakiti aku
punya jawaban yg tersimpan didalam hatimu.
live with emotions, don't live in them.
be a little dramatic but realistic.
6th May 2017.
i had questioned my life too many questions,
chuckled at every silly moments,
cried over all useless things,
ran after unnecessary human beings,
owned things that are already gone,
disappointed myself to make others happy,
left people who i now need the most.
am i lack of gratitude? yes.
and yet, i'm still thinking i was living my life
all these times.
5th May 2017. its been a long time. yes, it has. and i made such a disappointing comeback. you might see my poems in different language. it's great to be back!
mereka adalah sebuah cerita
tapi bukanlah sejarah ataupun masa lalu,
bahkan mereka juga belum tentu
dari masa hadapan.
mereka adalah sebuah cerita yang
sedang berlaku pada saat ini juga,
tetapi di hayalan ku, di pikiranku.
mereka adalah "kita;" aku dan kamu.
kebersamaan kita akhirnya telah terwujud
meski hanya sebatas angan angan.
memories are still memories.
they are something behind us.
they are abstracts.
they are just them.
but what if i still live in those situations?
what if my heart palpitates
just the way it did back in those circumstances?
what if my tears roll down my cheeks as I retrieved?
what if my heart tears apart as i remembered?
what if i hallucinate?
would the memories still be behind me?
would they still be abstracts?
are they still right behind me?
February 25, 2017
and like someone blind.
they can tell you what they have seen.
whether their anecdotes sound
mysterious, magic or tragic.
we all know its just their imagination.
and like someone who's in love.
they can tell you they'll never,
can never, in anyway, cheat on someone
they really love (at the moment).
and if in the next day they leave
those they really love.
they'll pretend that yesterday
weren't their souls in their bodies.
its like love is a spell.
Sunday February 12, 2017
it kills me that you are just
Thursday, February 9 2017.
khadijah a. wahab